I feel numb.. Nothing.. I've gotten so used to this smile, I don't even know if I'm actually happy.. I just don't feel anything.. 

It's kinda good in a way.. Plus all the drama at the office this afternoon, ugh, spare me.. And my ex, lol.. I don't even want to start..

Right now I'm so confused but satisfied in a way.. But I don't want to stay like this forever.. But maybe this is a blessing in disguise.. A part of me want things to remain as it is and a part of me is curious if this condition will be prolonged or will it's tenure finally end in due time..

lol, for the second time around, I had this symptom.. funny, I wonder when the third time will be? Or if there would be no more third time and develop into full Bi Polar.. Or am I becoming anti-social? hmmmm..