#flagrant system error

a lot of the time, i don’t know what to do with that feeling, even though i feel it a lot. sometimes i do really unhealthy things to help me deal with it, which i uh. do not recommend. 

but normally, writing it out helps. if writing (in like a notebook or word document or something) feels too permanent/difficult, talk to a person you trust. if you don’t have anyone to trust make a personal blog which no one you know irl follows and vent on there (or vent on your normal blog, as needed)–this last one is handy bc a)most people i know type faster than they handwrite, which can help open up a good venting stream, and b) you can delete the posts any time you like.

um. other suggestions: do a nice thing for someone, just a little easything, just to prove that you are still a person who is capable of kind acts and sweetness (i love the emotion sweetness). or go for a long walk with headphones on listening to really really loud music. or try and think about what you would say if someone else told you that they felt that way.