Poem #010: Long-distance Friendship
Wow this has been dead for two and a half *bleep*ing years. Whatever the *bleep* happened? Oh that's right. Work got in the way and then I just lost motivation. Since then life has recently changed and I want to reactivate my creative juices because otherwise I'll just think about what might have been instead on working it to a what was. Anyway, here's comes something written spontaneously last week that I'm posting without going through my major editing process because I have to submit something just so I can see if I can get back into a habit.
This one came from the top of my head. Spontaneously written. This day and age it is likely you'll know some people who live on the otherside of the world thanks to the internet. One of those people has since turned into quite a close friend and when you're an introvert it is hard to find friends close enough to confide inner secrets with. We chat quite often and truth be told we often fool about in these chats sometimes. You're heart often wants something more, something closer, physical and together and comes into conflict with your mind. You tell yourself it's not possible given the circumstances, it's hard to work, not everyone wants the same thing, there is no way, it is just not happening and so you hurt for a moment but ultimately you reach an inner compromise. It isn't always what you want but it still gives you what you need. Some sort of connection that remains with that person. You remain close friends and you learn to reconcile that with yourself. That you are happy that you still mean something to each other.
One thing I have noticed. I tend to stick to a structure in my poems. I try to rhyme them and rereading it does seem to look forced on occasion through awkwardly rearranging words so they sound like Yoda, or force it to make sense like an ice-cream soda... OK, maybe not. I think that's because it makes it more fun, more arty I guess, sorta like using literary devices such as alliteration which I like defining as using similar sounding words to structure because I mean honestly and seriously: there’s something so satisfying as saying sentences with similar sounds inside. I've not tried free-verse that often and I'll have to more if I am to grow.
I also don't know how to punctuate the lines properly
Sorry if things have changed between us Silly little notions within my head Thinking things best left unsaid I seem to make that mistake quite often We're both much too far away To ever make things work out this way Ten thousand miles the gap between us Distance too far to be together So let's remain as we were forever Long distance friends who mess about often That's the thing, to keep, I'd like and hope that me, you don't dislike. Truth be told, I don't know why I'm like this This is new to me, honest it's true, Guess I'm just scared of losing you Things I should suss and discuss With someone but how do I open up, When I've spent my life covering stuff up? I know something somewhere with me is amiss. Deep inside there's something wrong I can't do it myself, I'm not that strong But I'd hope we can walk to a future for us side-by-side but not hands-in-hands as Friends that remain in far off lands.
