#fittingend

I never wanted them all to know that things were going wrong, while I did confide details in an individual during the mistakes, most of my problem solving was done alone or with my counsellor. Partly this was because I was told by someone not to tell my friends because I was hurting them by sharing my pain and that I was wrong to do so. But this allowed me to keep a smile on my face and battle on through and only now afterwards have a few of them seen some of what it's done, and none of them know every mistake and bad decision I have made. None of them know the full effect it has had.

So doing that on my own is a fitting end, and also a fitting start to the new.

It means that this is the last thing I will try to do on my own, I have people I can trust and rely on (perhaps not trely on to turn up to a barbecue but at the end of the day it's no great loss c:), to confide in and who will be there for me.

Out with the old and in with the new.