#fist time

Gai considered it for a minute with a pensive expression on his face.

“Well, my first impression would be that it doesn’t seem very… hygienic, but neither did having sex, I guess” his boyfriend reasoned, cheeks still bright. “I think… I think I would be open to try. Do you, um… Have experience with it, as well?”

The Hatake nodded slightly.

“Just a bit” he admitted. “And only being the one doing it, not… The other way. So I may not be able to guide you very well.”

“That’s alright, rival! I’m sure that by giving my best effort I’ll be able to please you.”

Kakashi could not hold himself. The ‘good guy’ pose while they were in bed was too much fun to contain a chuckle.

“Of course you will.”

He had wondered, for a while then, how oral sex would feel. When sleeping with other men, he had never been able to see their faces because he was always on his arms and legs. Only their groans and moans —among other disgusting sounds— were indicative of how good they were feeling. However, in his three times having to use his mouth to please them, he had been forced to look at their faces as they came apart. The act itself didn’t feel nice due to the brutality and the bruises it brought to him, but it was evident that for the others the pleasure was rather satisfying.

Now that he had Gai to safely try different things in bed without fear of getting hurt —not on purpose, at least—, Kakashi wanted to know how that felt. Although he would make sure to treat his boyfriend with the delicacy he deserved, of course, never forcing him to do more than he was comfortable with.

Gai brought him back to the present by kissing him softly, covering his body with his own and letting his hands travel down. The Hatake sighed in the kiss, humming happily as the other boy’s lips shifted from his mouth to his neck, sucking there for a bit. They moved slowly against each other, clothes gradually disappearing until they were just in their underwear.

By then, the previous experiences together allowed them to read each other easily, Gai licking and kissing his skin carefully from neck to the sensible spot under his belly button. He could not hold back moans and wines as his nipples got teased, furiously red and slightly bitten, no doubt in retaliation for how much Kakashi had played with Gai’s the last time.

Their movements had led them slowly to the edge of the mattress, until the Hatake was almost sitting at the border and his boyfriend on his knees in between his legs. He observed —mouth dry— at how Gai lingered over his underwear for a moment, lips just brushing over the bulge underneath it. His hot breath made him moan loudly, anticipation getting out the worst of him.

“Is it ok if I remove this, rival?” Gai asked with more confidence than he expected.

“Yes” he groaned, lifting his hips a bit. “Please.”

In one swift motion, the other boy rolled the underwear down and out, throwing it away. His hard member came into view red and with pre-cum covering the tip. The simple view of Gai’s mouth so close to it made him wine. A second later, a shy hand came up to circle him, brushing him softly to peel his foreskin completely down.

“Gai.”

“So… Do I… Ah, just put it in my mouth?” his boyfriend breathed.

“No” he embarrassingly moaned. “W-Wait a minute.”

He reached to the right, opening the drawer of his nightstand to take out a condom.

“Put it on, first” Kakashi indicated, offering the package to the other boy.

“Oh, I thought you may want to cum in my mouth?”

Another groan.

“If you keep it up like this, Gai, I’ll cum on your face before you can even start.”

Even if embarrassed and with a hand covering half of his face to hide it, he was able to discern how his boyfriend became a deep shade of red at his comment.

“Besides, it’s for protection” he continued. “I know we’re clean and exclusive if you don’t count… Well. But, just in case.”

“I-I understand, rival” Gai nodded, opening the condom and sliding it slowly down on his member. “Although I would like to have sex without any barrier one day, when we’re ready.”

Kakashi’s heart beat faster at the idea. Even if uncomfortable due to his erection, he bent forwards to kiss Gai.

“Yeah, one day” he said against the other’s lips.

“Great!” his boyfriend beamed once he incorporated again, one hand still resting over his member. “Now, how do I…?”

“I, um… I think it’s kind of like doing what you do with your hands but… With your mouth? If that makes sense.”

“Um… Maybe” Gai said with a pensive expression. “Can I try?”

“Y-Yeah, of course.”

Somehow, his boyfriend got this amazing idea of first burying his nose in his crotch, breathing in as if he was an ocean full of fresh air. He moaned, hands grabbing tightly at the sheets.

“I like how you smell, rival” Gai commented as his lips brushed the beginning of his member. “I thought it would be unpleasant, but it’s not.”

Kakashi had tasted several erections on his honey-pot missions and all of them had been disgusting, so he really didn’t understand what the other boy meant by that.

“It smells like sweat, and somehow salty” he continued, one hand tugging at him while his tongue ran up. “Is this good?”

“G-Good, yes” the Hatake breathed. “You can c-continue.”

For a few minutes, he just observed how Gai used his hands to tease his balls in the way he licked it at the same time as his mouth rolled up and down, just timidly sucking at the tip before starting again. It was madness. Especially because from his seated position he could see his boyfriend’s bangs falling over his face as his lips worked on him. It was not just the pleasure of sex that he was feeling, but also the one coming from the image in front of him.

“I’m… I’m gonna try sucking now” Gai announced.

Kakashi managed to get out an agreeing whine. However, part of his arousal left momentarily as the other boy circled the tip of his member with his mouth and sucked hard. He grunted, pulling back.

“W-Wait!” the Hatake said. “That… That was too much, Gai.”

“Oh, sorry, rival” his boyfriend apologized, liberating his erection.

“It’s ok, I… Um, I kind of liked it, but I didn’t expect it from the beginning… Maybe try softer? I—I think it’s more about slowly building up the orgasm more than… Doing it fast.”

“So, um… Contrary to what you like when I penetrate you?”

“Y-Yeah, I think so.”

During their last encounters, they had come to know better what the other liked, thus discovering that, while Kakashi liked making love slowly sometimes, normally he preferred it hard but lovingly. A strange combination, sure, but that worked perfectly for a man like Gai, apparently. He was just lucky enough to have him.

If being honest, the Hatake had kind of expected to enjoy oral sex the same way, just as he had done for other men, who grabbed and tugged at his hair while moving quickly and enjoying loud and hard sucks. Apparently, his body thought otherwise.

“Ok, rival, I understand” Gai nodded, smiling at him with some saliva coming from the corner of his mouth. “Can I try again?”

“Yes. G-Go for it.”

This time, the suck was softer, more calm. It made him whine and his member twitch.

“B-Better. Way… Way better.”

Still with the erection in his mouth, Gai nodded and continued working his tongue around the tip, sometimes doing a thing that made him moan shamefully. Whatever it was, he wanted it more often.

At one point, his boyfriend looked up for feedback, and he could barely nod at the same time as he whined, the image of his member in between Gai’s lips and his big black eyes shining like that, too much for him. Still, even with such an overwhelming feeling, he felt something missing.

“Can you… Can you keep using your hands at the same time?”

His boyfriend nodded, the fingers holding his member going back to move up and down in perfect coordination with his mouth. Every time his hand slid down, his lips would suck around Kakashi’s erection, releasing him as the palm came up once again. That movement, together with the massaging of his balls, had him moaning and clawing at the sheets as his eyes closed in pleasure.

It took him some time to notice Gai was starting to go deeper, more and more of the Hatake’s member disappearing in his mouth as his cheeks became hollow to blow. The warmth around the sensible skin had him almost reaching his limit, body asking him to collaborate a bit in the dance. Kakashi was pretty sure he ripped part of the sheets as he pulled at them to contain the desire of grabbing Gai’s hair and just pull him down on him. To have himself completely buried in his mouth and throat.

Apparently, his self-control was less extended than he thought.

The room had filled with the moans leaving his mouth and the wet sounds of his boyfriend’s lips over him, saliva falling to the floor. At one point, the motion made Gai release a gurgling noise as he took a little more of his erection in. That was enough for Kakashi’s control to break.

His hips thrusted up at the same time as the other boy sucked, his member burying itself in Gai’s throat and making him gag. The instant pleasure almost made him cum, but the feeling quickly disappeared as his boyfriend released him and started to cough.

“S-Sorry!” he managed, bending down to hold the other boy’s face in his hands. “I’m so sorry, Gai. Are you ok? Have I hurt you?”

Kakashi was supposed to be better than that. He didn’t want to be like those men that had used him. He had to maintain control at all times.

“I-It’s…” another cough. “It’s ok… Rival. I-I’m ok.”

The Hatake released his hold a bit so Gai could breathe easier, still looking at him with worry in his face.

“Are you sure?” he pressed. “We can stop. I shouldn’t have…”

“Kakashi” his boyfriend protested. “I’m fine, I promise. I just… Didn’t expect the motion. I think I’ll need more practice before taking you fully in. I will make a challenge out of it!”

He sounded strangely motivated, which managed to get a chuckle out of the Hatake.

“I, um… I would like to try now, if that’s ok.”

For a second, Kakashi was not sure of what he meant, until the tip of his member was brushed by Gai’s tongue and brought back to life.

Oh.

“Really?”

The other boy nodded, so he agreed while looking at him with an amazed expression. This time, he put all his focus on keeping himself steady, which was not easy as his boyfriend’s mouth engulfed him one more time. Gai gave it a couple of more tries, gagging on his erection before giving up and releasing it with a wet ‘plop’, making him groan. He didn’t succeed in his intentions, but his motion was efficient anyways, bringing Kakashi closer to the end.

“I’m… I’m sorry, rival. It seems that I’ll need more practice” he said still against his member.

“T-That’s ok” he nodded. “I’m close now, so, um…”

“Would you like to guide me?” Gai asked. “You can grab my hair and set the pace, just… Not too deep?”

He doubted for a moment, looking sideways instead of focusing on Gai. His erection was throbbing almost painfully, but he was scared of losing control again.

“Kakashi?” the voice of his boyfriend sounded like a plea, so he redirected his sight to him. “I trust you.”

The honesty in those words almost made him cum. Instead, he nodded softly and let one hand brush over Gai’s neck, tangling on the hair there. Slowly, the other boy opened his mouth to engulf him at the tip, lips softly around his member. Kakashi moved his hand slowly up until he had a good grab at his boyfriend’s hair. Then, he looked straight to his eyes and waited until he nodded before pushing him forwards, erection disappearing in his mouth. He pressed until the resistance of Gai’s throat was prominent, pulling out then. After another nod to confirm it was ok, he pushed one more time.

He moaned at the feeling.

The Hatake was capable of setting a pace that worked for him and Gai, not too fast but with enough rhythm to make him see the stars as a tongue played with his sensible skin and lips sucked the life out of him.

It was just so good.

He knew rather well he wouldn’t last long, but then Gai had this amazing —wonderful— idea of making a sound of his own, the tremor forcing a mix of groan and moan out of his mouth as he cum. His hips moved for a few seconds as his orgasm rolled down, careful to not push too much into his boyfriend as he came apart. When he finally gave up, releasing Gai’s hold and letting his upper body fall over the mattress, the electric shock was still running though him.

The other boy’s long breaths were easily audible, the pace they had set at the end probably a little too fast for him. Kakashi could feel Gai’s face resting against his thigh, and he managed to move a hand to pat his wet cheek.

“T-That was… Perfect” he praised. “Outstanding.”

“Really, rival?” his boyfriend panted. “You’re not lying?”

The Hatake chuckled, incorporating a bit over his free arm.

“Of course not, Gai” he laughed. “I would never lie about your incredible abilities in sex. I’m just sorry that you didn’t…”

His words became silent as his eyes settled down on the other boy’s crotch. There was an evident tension on the thong he was wearing, and not only due to his size.

“You’re… You’re hard?”

“Um, y-yeah?” Gai nodded, shifting a bit. “It that… a problem?”

“N-No! I’m just… Surprised” he admitted. “Whenever I had to… Well, I never enjoyed it, really, and certainly didn’t get excited for it, but I guess it depends on who you do it with…”

“O-Oh, I see… It’s just… Well, I like pleasing you, rival” his boyfriend mumbled, saliva still coming down from the corner of his lips. “And the sounds you make, together with your hold, I-I, um… I liked that.”

It made sense, the Hatake assumed. At the beginning, he had doubted being capable of truly enjoying penetration, not because he was forced to it, but because he didn’t really look forwards to it. It was plausible the same applied to oral sex.

“Good” he said, smiling a bit. “That’ll make it easier for me now.”

“W-What?” the other boy asked, almost babbling. “Do you mean..? But you don’t have to if you don’t like it, rival! I was surprised to find out it’s something I enjoy, but that doesn’t mean that I expect you to…”

“I want to try” the Hatake interrupted him. “Just once, at least. If that’s ok with you.”

“O-Of course.”

Slowly, they changed positions, helping each other until Gai was the one sitting on the mattress and Kakashi on his knees just in front of his crotch. He may have found himself in that same position with other men during missions, but that time it felt different. Nobody was grabbing at him and making him gag before he had the opportunity to take a breath, for starters.

He began by caring Gai’s erection up and down with his right hand, the foreskin already retracted and letting out his big and wet head. At the same time, he used the left hand to massage his balls in the way he knew his boyfriend became crazy for. There was some pre-cum coming from the tip of his member, and Kakashi brought his tongue out to lick it in one swift movement.

“R-Rival!” Gai moaned, moving his hips slightly back. “Shouldn’t we… u-use a condom?”

Oh. Right.

“Y-Yeah, sorry” he muttered, reaching for another package from his nightstand.

The Hatake rolled down the condom slowly over the hardness in front of him, the new pre-cum coming off it making the slide easier. Once settled, he gave it a hard lick from base to tip, managing to make Gai thrust his hips up to follow the movement. For the next part, he took a deep breath, moving his right hand to his boyfriend’s inner thigh for support while the other continued with his massage. Then, he engulfed him with his mouth and pushed down.

The feeling was not exactly pleasing, but the smell of Gai made it better. Using his tongue, he helped himself to swallow around the erection until it reached his throat. As expected, his gag reflex activated instantly and Kakashi had to make a conscious effort to subside it, giving it a couple of seconds before keep going. When his nose came in contact with the black curls of Gai’s crotch, he focused on swallowing again.

“K-KAKASHI!”

The Hatake was able to hold himself there for about seven seconds before having to retract his head, freeing the hard member and giving himself an opportunity to fill his lungs with air again.

“Did it… Did it feel… good?” he panted with a teasing smile.

There was a lot of saliva coming from the border of his lips, and he used his arm to remove it.

“It was… That felt… How did you do it?”

“Practice” he pointed out, fingers caring the erection in front of him. “Should I do it again?”

“I, um… Is that ok?” Gai wondered, one hand coming to cup his face. “I don’t want to hurt you.”

The other boy’s fingers brushed away a tear falling from Kakashi’s normal eye. He hadn’t even realized it.

“Oh, this is not… Because of that” the Hatake assured. “It’s just the effort, Gai. I’m ok, I promise.”

His boyfriend observed him for a few moments, as if wanting to make sure he was not just saying that.

“O-Ok, then” he finally nodded. “But I don’t know if I’ll last much longer if you, um… Keep it up.”

Kakashi chuckled, feeling strangely proud of that.

“Not a challenge, so it doesn’t matter.”

He moved back to surround Gai’s member with his mouth, one hand pulling down at the other boy’s scrotum just to get a whine out of him. Then, he went back to deepthroat him. Kakashi was able to do it three more times before being left out panting, his boyfriend erection still not spilling completely.

“It appears you’re insatiable, rival” he mocked, knowing what that made to Gai.

Still, he didn’t cum.

“Would you like to hold me?” the Hatake proposed. “You could set up a rhythm that works for you.”

“I-I don’t know, rival… What if I push too hard or too fast?”

It was nice, to have his boyfriend considering that when the other men who had used him for the same purpose didn’t care at all about how he felt.

“I’m sure I could take it, but in any case I could pull out” he said, “or even pat on your leg with one of my hands to tell you to stop.”

That idea seemed to be a good one, Gai nodding with more conviction.

“So, I just… Grab your hair and pull down?”

“Yeah, but, maybe let me set the pace at the beginning? Until you get used to the movement, and then you can take control. How does that sound?”

“Perfect, rival.”

When Gai’s fingers curled around a handful of his hair, it was completely different from the other men that had taken his mouth. He was firm but gentler, as if he was about to brush Kakashi’s hair instead of pushing his mouth down his member.

Just as established, he was the one setting the rhythm initially, lips moving up and down the length in his mouth but without reaching the gagging point. His boyfriend’s arm followed the movement easily, the hair-pulling not causing him the same distress Kakashi had felt in the past.

After a couple of seconds, the Hatake closed his eyes. He was used to do that when sucking a target, even if it seemed risky, and for good reasons. First, it made the scene more real, which lowered the defense of the other person. Second, it made it easier for him to focus on his other senses, which were more useful for him in that situation. And third, it eliminated the possibility of having to look up to the other man while he did it. Gai, however, was not a target, and surely not a person he disliked to look at.

He opened his eyes again and glanced up. His boyfriend’s face was one of bliss, but still maintained the focus on Kakashi, their eyes interlocking the next second. The Hatake felt himself blushing, the stare of Gai and the image of himself in that position becoming too much for him. By then, the other boy had already taken up the task of marking the pace, hand moving slightly faster and with a stronger hold.

Kakashi relaxed his mouth and throat to make the slide easier, even if his boyfriend was careful enough to never make him gag.

“I’m… I’m c-close, rival” Gai panted. “C-Can I i-increase the rhythm?”

Eyes not leaving his boyfriend, the Hatake nodded as much as he could in his position and prepared for a faster pace. His saliva produced wet sounds that echoed in the room, mixing with Gai’s moans and whines as the pace of his hand complemented with the slight thrusts of his hips.

“A-AH! Ri-Rival!” a hard push, more than what Kakashi had expected, and his boyfriend was cumming. “AGH!”

He gagged as the last thrust made the erection brush the beginning of his throat, for a second the fear of his lunch coming up invading him. Luckily, Gai’s movements became softer after that, his gagging disappearing and the thrusting transforming into something more superficial, only the tip sliding in and out of the Hatake’s mouth. By the time he stopped moving, Kakashi was capable of seeing his release being held on the tip of the condom.

As his boyfriend let out a loud sigh and let himself fall on the mattress, he took out the rubber and made a knot to avoid a mess. Then, the Hatake got up on trembling legs due to the position he had been in, and sat on the bed as well, one elbow supporting his weight as he looked at Gai.

“Was it good?” he asked, his free hand removing the saliva dripping from his mouth.

“Incredible, rival!” the other boy happily breathed. “What you did with your throat… I can’t wait to feel it again another day.”

The Hatake just hummed lowly, eyes not meeting Gai’s.

“Kakashi?” his boyfriend called, a tired hand coming to rest on his cheek. “Is something wrong?”

 That was a good question.

“I’m… not sure” he admitted, letting himself fall over the mattress as well and turning so they were face to face. “I didn’t mind doing it.”

“But..?”

“But… I don’t think it’s an activity I would enjoy doing much in the future” he said. “I’m not saying never again, just… Not as often?”

“Of course, rival! I wouldn’t like to engage in any practice that the both of us couldn’t enjoy” Gai firmly assured. “As good as it felt, I would be perfectly fine if you don’t want to repeat the experience at all.”

Just as happened the other times, those sweet words made Kakashi feel warm inside and he had to kiss his boyfriend to subside the feeling a bit.

“Thank you” he murmured. Then, his mouth opened again to try and explain himself. “It’s just… It felt too much like doing it with a mission’s target. Not because of you, but… It’s hard to put it into words. When we have sex in other ways it’s not the same sensation, while this… I don’t know.”

“It’s ok, Kakashi” Gai said, smiling softly at him and brushing his grey locks out of his face. “You don’t have to explain it.”

He nodded, rubbing his nose against his boyfriend’s palm.

Even if they had used condoms, there was still a certain level of mess in the room, from discarded clothes around to the rubbers full of cum on the ground or their sweaty bodies over the mattress. The Hatake would fight anybody who said that sex was not a workout itself.

The sun had been replaced by the moon in the sky, its light entering through the window together with that coming from the stars. Making an effort, Kakashi grabbed his boyfriend’s body and pushed until they were both further over the mattress, no limbs hanging from the border. Gai let him do, not complaining at all as he curled against his side, using the other boy’s chest as a pillow.

“We should take a shower and have some dinner, rival.”

He rubbed his face against the hard pectoral underneath his cheek, breathing in the smell of sweat, sex and Gai.

“Later” the Hatake yawned. “First, a nap.”

Gai’s chuckle made his face tremble, and he pinched his side so he would stop moving and let him sleep. As expected, his boyfriend easily complied, arms coming up to hug his body and pull him closer.

Over the last few months, their relationship had reached a whole new level, entering the world of sex and awkward conversations. The experience, however, had increased their trust in each other, improved their communication and, evidently, brought a good amount of pleasure into their lives. Kakashi hadn’t expected all of that, admittedly scared at the beginning of not being able to enjoy this face of his relationship with Gai. Now, he was rather relieved of have given it a chance.

The world was not perfect, with too many deaths on his shoulders and crappy missions ahead of him. But, as long as he was able to go back home and find Gai, whether it was for a challenge, or a make out session or a sex marathon, he would be fine.

As a shinobi, many people had nudged him into finding something that could root him to the present and make dealing with reality more bearable. Kakashi had Gai. Comradery. Friendship. Rivalry. And now, they were learning each other’s touch.