#first personal post

" There is a lot of darkness in our world, there is a lot of pain and you can choose to see that or you can choose to see the joy. If you try to respond positively to the world, you will spend your time better. "

This is my most favourite quote by Tom Hiddleston.

Inspite of living in the spotlight for over a decade now, he has never let fame change his down-to-earth nature. He is extremely kind-hearted, generous, well articulated and well versed, passionate, huge Shakespeare geek, funny without being mean, soft-spoken, humble, considerate, great dancer, and last but not the least, a phenomenal actor. Also, did I mention how great a dad he seems to be to his pet dog- Bobby!

He never loses an opportunity to make a fan smile. He makes sure to hold a conversation with them for a few seconds ( often few minutes ) whenever they walk upto him for a picture or an autograph. And, every single person who has ever interviewed him or worked with him, will agree how incredibly wonderful person he truly is.

So, here's to the man who inspires me everyday to be a better version of myself. If only we had more people like him, the world would have been such a better place to live in.

Something as little as someone noticing something about me without me having to tell them make me realise once again how lonely I feel. And how broken I feel for not being able to reach out to anyone because I don't think it's fair to burden someone else with the burden that is mine but I can no longer carry. And how hopless I feel that I will never be able to trust someone enough to share this pain with. Because I don't think I am worth of something as pure as love being the complete mess that I am and that shows itself when I can no longer stand on my feet and all I can do is lay down and cry. And all of this hurts so much that I feel fisical pain and it gets hard to breathe through my desperation tears.