#firebird squawks

I, like most people I’ve seen, didn’t like “bugs”, it’s by far one of the worst episodes in the whole damn show if not the worst, and I’ll likely never watch it again cause the one time i did watch it i was hiding behind a pillow the whole time and screamed several times at the insect jumpscares and that intro with the dude in the hole made me physically ill and set off my paranoia for like a week after. HOWEVER, that little bit where Sam is being real gentle with that tarantula? that melted my fuckin heart for some reason. like I’m horribly arachnophobic so obvs I was mostly looking at Sam anyway, but just, something about him being so gentle and focused on not hurting it got me all warm and fuzzy.

*aggressively pointing at sam and dean* GENDER

the worst part about being terrified of making fandom friends is the fact that I have ALL THESE IDEAS for roleplays and no one to do them with. “But Phoenix,” I hear you ask “Why can’t you just write it out as a fanfic?” to which I must unfortunately inform you that the autism gremlin in my brain is not satisfied purely by solo creation. The little bastard wants community. I do wish it were as simple as just writing it out because if it was I would have done it by now. anyway this is my pathetic attempt at signalling that I would like to meet people /lh /nf

season one sam and dean are just little guys and I love them for that

thinkin’ about everything Sam and Dean went through :(