#findingmychi

#meditation #relaxing #focusingonme #findingmycenter #innerpeace #findingmychi #calming #calmingthemind #findingzen #iloveme #ilovehim #aligningmychakras (at North Clairemont, San Diego)

Monday Gym Vibes: Lift Things & Call me Pretty! 💪🏼😘 Git a shout out for being 7 mins early today ⭐️{and new hair💁🏻}. E2MOM 5x5 Back Squats 🏋🏻‍♀️. Also did my 1st Cindy! 12Rounds & 12 Reps if 5 Pulls Ups {Jumping}, 10 Push Ups {With a Box} & 15 Air Squats 🐼 BOOM! #findingmychi #goldstar #findingmyself #openingday #baltimore #baltimoreorioles #crossfit #crossfitgirls #crossfitfamily #12thstatetough #cindy #backsquat #squatbutt #summeriscoming #betterlife #betterme #fakeittillyoumakeit #britterbits

Ok friends... so this is what Anxiety really looks like. I have been sharing a lot lately but what I want to make sure is what your seeing is life, yup that's right all of it. The good, the bad, the ugly, even the Terrifying & Trembly. Anxiety is a real thing that manifests its self in real & physical ways. It's not just being someone who worries all the time, or can't let go, it's not even only about that. Today I had another inner battle with myself. I know the worry is irrational and even though you can sit here and tell yourself that, it doesn't change how I feel. My mind knows but my body still reacts. PTS. It used to happen just when I was getting ready to meet large groups it wasn't this bad until recently but I would talk myself threw it & maybe even need to take some deep breaths. "I hope they like me, please let them like me and fit in & I look ok. God I'm awkward." Now it's morphed into every time I leave the house. I have an internal power struggle out of fear "what if I lose it all again or I can't put myself out there". My new one is "what if can't come home & I'm trapped". It's not fun, I hate feeling this way, but I'm not a light switch and it's not something I can just shut off. I have to work threw it. Every time. And even though it's hard & sometimes people make it worse... I'm here to tell you, it's something you CAN CONQUER! Just give it time, give yourself credit, and be oh so very brave! So proud of myself just for making it out of the house today! 💪🏼⭐️ #goldstar #bravery #findingmychi #mentalhealth #anxiety #youcandoit #betterme #betterlife #fakeittillyoumakeit #britterbits #mycrossfitfamilyisclutch (at Raleigh, North Carolina)

Some days you just need to go out for a quick evening run! #grateful #chirunning #findingmychi #justwhatineed (at Yorba Linda Recreational Trail)

Short run before the rain muds the trails... such a good feeling! #grateful #findingmychi #chirunning #beforethestorm #happyrun (at Yorba Linda, California)

Spontaneous stop at the #WarmSprings #Oregon #Fishhatchery. #rv #boondockinthedirt #sunnynearSmith #findingmychi