#findinghappinessitml

So, I am posting this email because I have been meaning to post literally anything to my blog since my last post and I just haven’t been able to but I just got this service called Magic Personal Assistant and it really is magical if in nothing else but it takes off so much pressure in knowing that I don’t have to do everything by myself and I will have professional help that will definitely get. things. done.

My mother and I obviously have a complicated relationship. Everybody has a complicated relationship with their mother. But I think I can confidently say that this my relationship with my mom is ….just extra. We are working on getting to know each other better, on being patient with each other, on being there for each other in new ways, on being honest and forthcoming in our communications, on giving each other space where space is needed, on turning the other cheek when we disapprove of what the other is doing, on learning to like each other instead of just love each other, on not giving up on each other and never speaking again.

What I’d like to suggest to anyone who wants to say something to their mother but hasn’t been able to thus far in life, try: just blurting it out, writing it out in a text and having your loved one press the send button, writing it out longhand so you can burn it afterward, writing it out to an email to me: [email protected].

Here’s the email:

hey momma. estoy usando el servicio de terapia por mensajes que te estaba diciendo de el otro dia. es para poder mensajiar con un terapista pero 24/7 enves de solo una vez por semana. no se preocupe. no voy a dejar de ver a Alexine cada semana. es solo que me gustaría poder hablar con un profesional cuando tengo esos ataques de ansiedad. y cuando tengo los flashbacks (las memorias que me toman por sorpresa y siento que estoy en ellas en ese momento y no puedo ver lo que en realidad está pasando enfrente de mi)

ellos me recomendaron que consiguiera un servicio de paga-como-por-minuto para ayudarme con las cosas de dia a dia que yo no puedo hacer en este momento por la depri. (depresion) cosas como llamar para cambiar mi dirección con USPS, cancelar un servicio, llamar y hacerme las citas con los doctores que necesito hacer pero no hago porque estoy muy preocupada de costo(o si vale la pena ir o s voy a poder ir o si voy a poder ir con alguien no sola et cetera. pierdo como dos hora pensando de todo lo que puede ir mal y nunca llamo hacer la puta cita.), ellos hacen eso con acceso a mi google calendar. y tambien me pueden ayudar con "calendar management" que significa que ellos pueden hacerme un calendario para el dia con tiempos para poder estar mas organizada en lo que tengo que hacer en el dia, y tambien me pueden ayudar con poner productos de venta en etsy/ebay/amazon. solo les mando las fotos de producto(y los detalles -precio,cantidad,colores,etcétera- y ellos se encargan del resto. TAMBIÉN pueden hacer edito de videos y audio y gramática en los artículos que quiero escribir. básicamente me pueden ayudar todo lo que yo no puedo hacer en este momento porque estoy tratando de mantenerme tranquila y positiva para no pensar de cuantas ganas tengo de matarme hoy porque hoy me parece como un dia indicado y excelente para dejar de existir y estoy exhausta de tener que estar peleando todos esos pensamientos y también tener que acordarme de cambiar mi dirección en con USPS.

Use tu tarjeta. Por favor, me dices si es mucho y te lo pago de vuelta. Tengo la plata es solo una ayuda para no preocuparme del costo de conseguir ayuda también. Te quiero. gracias por todo lo que haces por mi.

Translation

Through the Blessed Google Translate -The tool that has helped countless bilingual lil people like me get by in this spanglish world:

hey momma. I am using the message therapy service I was telling you about the other day. It is to be able to message with a therapist but 24/7 only once a week. do not worry. I will not stop seeing Alexine every week. I just wish I could talk to a professional when I have those anxiety attacks. and when I have the flashbacks (the memories that take me by surprise and I feel that I am in them at that moment and I can't see what is really happening in front of me)

They recommended that I get a pay-as-per-minute service to help me with the day-to-day things that I cannot do right now because of the depression. (depression) things like calling to change my address with USPS, cancel a service, call and make appointments with the doctors I need to do but I don't do it because I am very worried about cost (or if it is worth going I will be able to go or if I'm going to be able to go with someone not alone and cetera, I lose about two hours thinking about everything that can go wrong and I never call the fucking date.), they do that with access to my google calendar. and they can also help me with "calendar management" which means that they can make me a calendar for the day with times to be more organized in what I have to do on the day, and they can also help me with putting sales products on etsy / ebay / amazon. I just send them the product photos (and the details - price, quantity, colors, etc.) and they take care of the rest. They can also edit videos and audio and grammar in the articles I want to write. They can basically help me with everything that I can't do right now because I'm trying to stay calm and positive so as not to think about how much I want to kill myself today because today seems like an indicated and excellent day to stop existing and I'm exhausted from having to fight all those thoughts and also having to remember to change my address in with USPS.