#finaltask

January 10, 2023

Most students have a fear of failure and/or being left behind by their classmates and friends. This is a fear I have since elementary school. As a consistent honor student, being left behind and failing exams are one of my biggest fear. So with less than a week to prepare for my finals, I started to gathering all of my learning materials such as PowerPoints and Handouts and compiled them based on their subjects. All of them are organised by name in my laptop for easy access and downloaded them to ensure that it is accessible even with the absence of wifi.

Although I may have started a bit late in making my reviewers, I have plenty of time to do them in school as I have a lot of free time recently. Most of my teachers allowed us to do anything in their period so long as we do not make a lot of noise and cause a ruckus.

One of the ways I spend my time as a break from studying is reading. There is only so much knowledge I can retain before I get tired and overwhelmed by the information. To avoid burn out, reading fantasy books or essays helps me to destress and enables me to take a break whilst doing something productive that isn't school related. Another form of relaxing and one of my motivation is through journaling. Journaling people that inspires me, whether they are fictional characters or real people, never fails to remind me what I want to achieve in the future. It always reminds me to embody their character for motivation, "(this character) will do this. They will be working on this right now."

Today was a cold day for me, although I don't know why. I feel sad and weak and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I've been thinking a lot lately and our school stuff goes along with it, which also adds up because I've been feeling empty lately and don't feel like doing anything. I'm not motivated by what I can't understand, I feel like I'm in a game where I'm the only one who has to act and help myself... I don't know. I've been feeling so drained lately that I'm losing my appetite for everything, hay! Wish me luck!

I'm not okay. I didn't do anything but sit aside to rest because I had nothing else to do today. I have already compiled everything I will pass this week. That's why I just came in to do nothing today. Although, we only had a discussion today on one of our subjects which is the DRR and after that no one taught us again.

January 12, 2023

A normal and typical days when there is a test in my class, you will see one of the many things all together: students sleeping 30 minutes before the test, eating in the cafeteria with notes that wasn't touched during the meal, students in the classroom playing video games on the phone, asking another student if they have notes, and students who are furiously scribbling on a paper writing down notes at the last minute in the library.

Simply put it; test days = chaotic days. More chaotic than it usually is. However, there is some sort of unity happening within those days. Everyone is willing to help each other study and lend a helping hand (lend notes). We seldom take tests seriously as it is not as serious as the teachers let us take them. Although when the big tests take place, everyone in school will know. These are one of the few days the air is tense within the classroom and nervous chills and jitters run down within the students' body in anticipation.

I was one of the students writing furiously on papers the last minute. I know it is not healthy, so one of my resolutions this year is that I will do better. Unfortunately, I failed within the beginning of the year. But that's okay, I still have the rest of the year to improve.