Rant
... I'm having a lot of routine changes very quickly, from cleaning/rearranging part of my room, to updating the BG on my tablet for the first time in maybe six months, to having a lot of schedule changes after a long streak of consistent timely structure I know all of these are either small, or temporary, AND that I'm handling them very well, but I have a lot of future plan thoughts that I need to keep at bay until I'm back to a more stable time time. (DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE?!) a time where my time is more stable. I feel like at any moment I could tip over, and it's very overwhelming. Oh, and I've cut myself off from any support from the family, because I asked for my dad to talk about that blow up, which is getting further and further away, and my father won't talk to me. WHOO Also, I've been having a WEIRD time trying to sleep lately.like last night, the inside of my head felt slimy? It was so yucky, and didn't lead to any amount of sleep. ~ALSO AGAIN~ my body dysphoria has been super weird, I just feel super disconnected from my body rn, like I'm keeping care of it for a friend, like it's nice, but I wouldn't want it as mine. I think my breasts are growing again? Which is super annoying, I /just/ got new bras like not that long ago, and they were expensive as fuck. Basically being in my body is super fun rn /sarcasm
