#fidzwrites

Am I not enough —

For you to stay to witness my becoming?

Or was I only enough

To watch from a safe distance,

To pat me on the head

Before disappearing.

Am I not enough —

For you to reach for me first,

Instead of waiting in the shadows,

Thrilled only when I chased you,

When my longing fed your pride.

Am I not enough —

When you made promises

That sounded like a future,

Encouraged me to study,

Lifted me with one hand

And struck me with the other.

Am I not enough —

When I stood beside you,

The quiet, understanding wife,

Carrying storms in silence

So you could pretend

Our world was calm.

Am I not enough —

When I bore every burden

While you spent your time elsewhere —

Even with the servant,

As if loyalty meant nothing

And devotion was disposable.

You once ask me

What part of me wasn’t enough.

But the truth is simple:

If I had ever been enough,

You wouldn’t have left me

Standing alone in the wreckage

Of everything I gave.

- Fidz