#ficness thoughts

In the last two weeks, my AO3 account has gotten at least a hundred hits for Shadow and Veil--which I'm happy about because there hasn't been very much traction over there for this story (I get it, the fandom for this character is niche).

Anyways

100 hits to the story in two weeks and not one kudo or comment. Not. One. I don't write for other people, I write for myself. But, its nice to get even a little bit of feedback once in a while to make me feel like I'm not shouting into the void.

I typically do all of my fandom reading over on AO3--I like the format. If I like a story, I'll almost always leave a comment or a kudo--I fail at that, sometimes, because I'm human. But, I try. I want other writers to feel seen and heard and that their writing sparks something in other people.

Which brings me to Tumblr.

Here, I at least get the occasional reblog and regular comments, I see you @littleone65 ! I get to read the tags on the reblogs and it feels like seeing my work all over again with fresh eyes. For years, I have posted weekly to this blog and, for years, there has been a reader or two that responds to my work. As a writer, that feels good. It encourages me to keep going.

Sometimes I wonder if readers really want that kind of thing. I know that there are times where I have been reading a story and felt the urge to skip ahead to get to 'the good stuff', but I usually have to go back a bit because I'll inevitably miss something that's pertinent to the plot.

So, I made the mistake(?) of watching Bullet Train and now I’m thinking of doing a fic with Tangerine. I know. I know. I’m late to the game. If you hadn’t figured out that, that is par for the course with me, go read The Guarantor. I was ten years late to True Blood fic writing and--I’m gonna toot my own horn, here--its a fantastic story.

Anyways

Before I go through the absolute mayhem of outlining the plot

Is there any interest at all for this character?

Lord.

I have struggled the last few weeks with writing. I know where the story needs to go and I know roughly how I want to get there. But, man are the words not coming.

Yesterday, I deleted almost an entire chapter because it just wasn’t right. And now, I’m sitting here trying to start the chapter again and I just...can’t.

Don’t worry, dear readers, there are plenty of chapters for S&V ready to be posted. I don’t anticipate any kind of gap in my posting schedule.

and think to yourself, ‘well...I did not see that coming.”

This is that line:

Head turning, Horacio lifted a brow, “I didn’t ask you to. Threatening your husband while you soak the front of my jeans is now in my top five favorite fantasies. Open.”