DespiteĀ Varsaās constant smiling and optimism about everything he does, he is insecure over his capabilities and whether he can achieve what he really planned for Folkhaven. In the prologueĀ of Folkhaven he makes a terrible mistake - having campaigned for human rights in the past, he believed he could sort out the affairs of a group of fellow Others. Unfortunately for him, those Others turned out to be the Irish Fair Folk, which despite having their own alignments and moralities are still very far from sharing anything with a pleasure demon.
Because of this mistake, he feels that he should right that wrong and make up for it somehow. He still stands by his original mission to extend a hand to Others who feel misguided and lost in the new age, but his footing is shaky - he secretly questions his actual knowledge and understanding of humans andĀ Others, and the connection between the two.Ā
The truth is, heās not as confident as he looks. Heās not in denial per se, but he worries that whatever he does is insufficient in the capacity of being a founder of a task he very well knows will become quite a burden in some ways and a delight in others. Is he ready for that? Heās not sure. Heās never been a leader. Heās spent ~600 years doing whatever he likes, and only when he settled into human society did he become aware of othersā feelings and state of existence. Though he sympathised with humans early on and stopped killing them while getting his sustenance from them, it was more out of self-interest - people were less likely to, cough, demonise him and more likely to seek him out again til he could probably make a calling card - than empathy.
Heās pretty much a Stepford Smiler, or at least on his way there. No one is aware of this because he feels that he has to live up to the expectation as the leading founder, he needs to look the part and come off as if he knows what heās doing. It couldnāt be further from the truth.
