I know things you want so badly seem so far away - almost impossible to reach maybe - but you'll get there; eventually and when the time is right for you. Don't dwell on these things right now. Try to focus on the positives! You have a job when many others don't, you have shelter and you have warmth. Everything else will fall into place for my lovely when the time is right! <3 x
Yes, I do have job, but I know exactly, how feels being jobless too. Fact I was once, made me to take this job, even I wished I wouldn't have to. So trust me, Loviee, it's not like I don't appreciate I have it. I do. But I hate this job. Do you know, how does it feel to do something each and every day and hate it with all your might? Pls, don't get me wrong, I'm not optimistic person, bc life kicked me too hard over past almsot 30 years of my life, not bc I find that amusing and great to be like that. I wish things could be easier, better, etc. But they're not and I'm honestly tired of it, bc I don't even remember any more, when they're like that at the first place. And I have all rights to feel that way, bc I keep fighting with my stupid Fate since years. But tysm anyway, it's nice you care <3 x