#ferryboatpeak

la you sent this back in august i think and i have no idea what the questions even were so i'm just going to make up questions which is probably more enjoyable* for both of us:

5. in the final days of finishing your fic, did you listen to 'horses' by maggie rogers on relentless repeat and if so why and what feelings did that spark in you?

yes and i don't even know why! maggie rogers i'm sure is fine but i can’t say i’m a particular fan. however i was at work and put on her most recent album on a whim and then that song came on and honestly (no shade maggie you’re great i’m sure) it’s kind of annoying/grating but in that moment it became the only song i could listen to for like three days as i was in the final throes and it carried me all the way through, it has a particular achiness that exactly matched what i was looking for. i was waiting to get the oil changed in my car, trying to tweak the last scenes on my phone, good ol’ maggie wishing she could be like those horses for just a minute, and i’m sure the people at the car place thought i was deranged

putting the rest under a cut because i am at all times afraid of annoying people on my own blog, which is a normal sentiment

@ferryboatpeak asked for an update on my squirrel daughter (hi la!!!! i missed u!!!), so here is a video i took of her semi-recently! it’s best for squirrels to have small amounts of animal protein in their diets, like some squirrels enjoy mealworms or cheese or hardboiled egg, but we’ve tried giving reyna all of those things and she is VERY not into them, she ignores them entirely without even acknowledging them as being potentially edible, so we’d kind of given up trying to give them to her. but a while ago we discovered that she REALLY enjoys deli ham and cream cheese on a bit of cracker, so that was v exciting! i make a super weird noise when she takes the cracker from me because i wasn’t sure if she would take it at all or would just nibble it out of my hand; she doesn’t like to touch things like cream cheese bc she doesn’t like her little paws to get dirty 🥺🥺.

zayn and harry both want niall to model for them. only one of them understands why.

18. A memorable meal this year?

Oh man there have been so many! And memorable for so many different reasons as well. Ian and I made a 6-course tomato centric meal in the spring that was amazing. I also loved our rehearsal dinner, which was at an Indian restaurant near my church. They made mostly vegetarian food for the buffet and everybody gorged themselves. (Plus I was freshly back from Greece so the spice levels lit me up more than they typically would, haha). 

20. What’s something you learned this year?

This is tough…I’ve spent the year realizing a lot of hard truths and learning a lot. Perhaps it’s that I’ve become more aware of how other people typically react to my intensity, in both professional and personal contexts. I’ve gotten better at not backing down when I shouldn’t, and walking away when I should. I still have a long way to go on this, though. For sure.

23. If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be?

storandes threesomes are where it’s at

harry sees shawn as a younger, shinier threat but niall’s lovin ass is just like “there’s enough of me for everyone”