#fenkizard

omg i wrote a great response to this and then my internet dropped while I was posting it and it disappeared, so let me try to recreate it.

Basically i got the idea for medic zach a while ago when i was thinking about how fun it would be to add him to the tortuga team as their medic because they really need one. it's such an unexpected role for him but paradoxically one that suits his personality really well. Paramedics have to be unsentimental and can't always afford to see the body in front of them as a person. Zach is, uh, uniquely gifted at not seeing people as people and i liked the idea that this makes him a pretty effective medic and biomedical researcher. Like he's interested in machines but also in the human body as a machine, and that's what's interesting about people to him, rather than like, their personalities and forming bonds with them.

"And I rode into Baltimore And I found a hotel room Where I tried to escape you But the phone line wouldn't go through And inside the mirror Well, I saw you stamping, staring out I'd recognize your eyes

You fell for any of the lines that come flying out Nothing I've heard from you sounds sane or safe Words falling down from the ceiling Where the mirror is stealing The light to reveal us both tonight And we're both kneeling in the Black pool of your shadow

You've cracked out of my head Go back beyond the pasture Where I'll smash your mirror 'Til you're dead"

~Okkervil River, Black Sheep Boy #4

First of all i am OBSESSED with Okkervil River's album "Black Sheep Boy & Appendix" and i listen to it a thousand times a week and the meme of writers being like "is this a plot?" to the vibe of a song is extremely true with me and various lyrics on this album, especially in my Wild Gods AU (which does have its own playlist even though I haven't started writing the fic yet). I'm sort of fascinated with the ram as a motif for addiction and it will be a lot more obvious in Wild Gods (although the one suffering the addiction may come as a surprise, hee hee).