YANDERE! FEITAN PORTER X DARLING!
TOUCH
â ïž This is a work of fiction with content I do not condone in reality. This is not meant to encourage or represent any type or sort of conduct. This is merely just fantasy â ïž
MDNIâą18+
Trigger warnings!
This work contains: Yandere content/intentionsâąNSFWâąKidnappingâąHolding against will (darling)âąCursingâąMentions of abuse/tortureâąStockholm SyndromeâąGeneral depravityâąObsessive tendenciesâąSexual acts (consensual but darling is psychologically not sound of mind to be consenting, so somewhat dubcon)âąOralâąfem darlingâąSomnophilia
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Time suddenly seemed to become irrelevant.
The days passed in a mundane blur, and at some point, everything seemed worthless.
He mentioned in passing that it was November now, though youâd stopped asking the date a few months after your imprisonment. You stopped talking nearly all together these last few months. You couldnât be entirely sure the last youâd spoken more than a word or two in response to his questions. His own speech minimal, though occasionally youâd catch a glimpse of his chattier side. Even that still couldnât be considered talkative, more of a normal amount of speech when in a conversation. You havenât seen that in a while either, maybe it disappeared when youâd stopped your own blubbering and whining. You didnât ask questions at all anymore. It was pointless and had little meaning.
He sat in his usual spot.
Perched in the corner of the room, eyes sharply trained on your form as always.
His eyes used to unnerve you, riddle you with anxiety and fear of what he was planning. What he might do. What he will do.
It mattered hardly at all at this point.
Youâd senselessly begged once, for it all to stop and for him to just kill you already. Thatâs what he mustâve had planned in the end, for what else did he want with you? An object to admire?
It seemed mad in itâs own way, that thought. Your questions of something or anything personal went unanswered and occasionally punished with weeks of isolation. It was better not to pry.
Asking for mercy and a faster death only brought a wrath you didnât know lay inside him down upon you.
It was the first time he became physical with you, touched you more than was the bare minimum of necessity. He was surprisingly warm. Except his touch at that time was anything but the usual gentleness you now realized he used with you. His unforgiving grip on your face as he dragged you to your knees, the absolute agony of having your jaw fractured. The pain was unbearable, and even now left phantom pains radiating down your body. Heâd dragged you out the front door, for the first time in what seemed to be forever.
Outside was duller than your mind remembered.
Youâd been thrown into a vehicle and taken somewhere new.
Youâd never wished to take back words more than you did that day. Heâd dragged you to some sort of⊠torture facility. Chained you in a corner and left you there for hours on end. Nervous and frightened, you waited and waited. When he did return, it wasnât alone. Someone youâd never met was dragged in, strapped down to a table.
Feitan had never really demonstrated anything so frightening before. Heâd been somewhat volatile and brash, but the sadistic side never revealed itself like it did that day.
A day turned into several, and for nearly a week you were made to watch his sessions as he called them. Where heâd laugh like a maniac as he turned living humans into creatures you pitied more than yourself. Heâd wipe their blood on you, smile as you trembled and begged for it to stop.
When he finally heeded your pleas, he asked a question that left you numb.
âStill want to die?â
You didnât want to die anymore, at least not by his hand. He knew no mercy. He had no grievance tearing someone apart and from the inside out. The events that followed spanned longer than you bothered to keep track of anymore. He brought you back to your âhomeâ where you were kept locked away. You had a bed, blankets and pillows, clothes and food, clean water and hygiene products. Youâd never appreciated a bed like you did that first night back before. The softness and warmth you felt made tears roll down your cheeks and you had thanked him for returning you. It was the first genuine gratitude youâd ever shown to him.
You glanced up from the TV running a show you barely processed to catch his gaze. Those grey orbs holding emotion you couldnât name or had never seen. He was always so still, and his porcelain features gave him the feel of a doll. For a moment, you merely held his gaze, feeling oddly calm and panicked all at once. Why you felt panicked didnât make sense, nor why youâd feel calm in the presence of what seemed to be the Grim Reaper himself. The only movement he made to acknowledge your attention was a slight quirk to his brow. His usually ignored but always open book in his hand closing. His face mostly covered left you little to go off to how he felt. Youâd gotten somewhat good at interpreting even the tiniest hint of emotion from him, but currently with your own frazzled feelings, figuring out his wasnât working.
Your legs were pulled to your chest, arms wrapped around them as you settled into a protected fleshy ball. The blanket on your shoulders helping ground you slightly.
Only a little.
âWhat?â His voice was raspy, his own lack of use evident.
It didnât sound annoyed, though you could just be misinterpreting this entire interaction.
It felt odd to speak, your mouth slightly cottony and dry, but the urge in your chest felt strangely compelled to say his name.
âFeiâ Youâd judged his voice, but your own was just as bad.
His eyes widened slightly, though aside from somewhat visible surprise, you were in the dark on how heâd feel about a nickname. Youâd given your captor a nickname long ago, though never voiced it aloud. Feitan⊠Fei felt less threatening.
Feitan is darkness and fear. Feitan tore your life away from you, terrorized you, imprisoned and controlled nearly every little aspect of your life down to your very diet. Feitan is the infamous torturer of the Phantom Troupe.
Fei⊠well, in your own mind, Fei had become a fictional sort of character. Fei was gentle, Fei listened when you spoke or rambled, and in your dreams Fei would touch you. You hadnât felt much of any contact in so long, and the last time had left a physically and psychologically painful memory behind. In your dreams, Fei would hold you, touch and caress, Fei was quiet but powerful. You knew it wasnât healthy, but nothing happening to you or around you was healthy. The mental sickness and insanity most certainly was tickling around your mind.
Youâd tested boundaries early with Feitan.
Screaming, kicking, fighting, escape attempts, refusal to eat or comply⊠were all met with isolation and revoking of privileges. Asking for death was met with nightmares and aching pain that still bothered you when it was too cold.
Youâd tried manipulation and coercion, neither you excelled in though. Feitan may be quiet, and occasionally his grammar is less than exemplary, but he is no fool. All attempts ended in⊠nothing. He did absolutely nothing. He was like a stone wall, impenetrable. Even now, you knew nothing of his intentions. Your only guess at this point, as out of place and ridiculous as it may sound, is companionship. He likely saw you as a pet of sorts, like one might ârescueâ a cat off the street. The treatment you receive is rather similar too. In his eyes, maybe you were just like a cat to him. A weak kitty he plucked off the cold streets and gave a warm home. It used to be a thought which invoked fury, but nowâŠ
You wished heâd commit to all acts of a pet owner. This included giving affection. You craved it. Missed it. Needed it. Something. A weird and warbled voice in your mind said youâd even accept the negative attention if it meant heâd put his hands on you again. Itâs a suicidal thought, but even as his gaze narrowed, you couldnât stop your body.
Heâs silent as always, as you uncurl from your position youâd taken as your usual way to cope. Holding yourself helped, but itâs be better if someone else did it. He didnât make any indication your nickname offended him.
Shaking, you stood on weak legs and began a pursuit of something youâd never thought youâd even entertain. He was across the room, and while he was by no means a big man, his presence could be suffocating when up close. Gracelessly and with little tact in your actions, you approached until you could smell him. He always smelled like mint and something metallic. For once, the thought of the underlying scent being blood didnât bother you. He smelled nice, and while his entire body language was closed off and reserved, he still hadnât even twitched.
He just kept observing you.
Even as you sank down to your knees in front of where he sat.
Those sharp eyes followed you the entire way. When the realization of what you wanted to do came, you werenât bombarded with the expected humiliation or shame. There wasnât guilt or disgust like you used to feel when these feelings would arise.
Maybe it signaled you were too far gone to save anymore.
âFeiâ his name left your lips again, and for the first time, his rapt attention felt good. It felt good to have him so focused on you. You watched as his head tilted slightly, his face hidden but you could somewhat fantasize about a soft smile playing on his lips behind the fabric of his collar. His favorite jacket always a staple in his clothing collection.
âWhat?â The way he asked proved he wasnât revolted at your proximity. He didnât seem to be asking what you were doing, but rather why you called his name.
âTouch me?â Though youâd phrased it like a question, it bordered precariously on being a demand. You probably looked ridiculous, kneeling at his feet and staring up at him like a sick puppy looking for even the smallest amount of attention. You should be avoiding him, trying to get away, doing anything but this. The only thing you felt though was fear of rejection. That heâd cackle like he does on the phone occasionally, with someone named Shalnark or Phinks, or like he did when he removed the hands of an artist and found humor in the irony. He didnât answer immediately like he normally would with a direct question. This couldnât possibly be considered a personal question that he enjoys avoiding, it has only to do with you.
âPleaseâŠâ you sounded pathetic, even to yourself. The way your bottom lip pouted out and wobbled, the way your eyes watered a little as if youâd cry at any moment, the way you trembled. You didnât want to grab onto his pant leg, still mindful that a kick from him could easily be your undoing. Youâd have to wait till given permission. A pet is what he wants, right?
You could finally be hitting that special point of breaking.
This could be another delusion youâd conjured up and youâre moments away from a lot of pain or isolation again. Itâs impossible to tell. No power rested in your hands, and that small realization had tears rolling down your cheeks as you looked at the man whoâd reduced you to this mess.
Begging him for measly scraps of what should be your right. Humans needed the physical contact for their health, and while he was clearly the devil, you needed it. Needed him. Needed anything.
âFei please⊠Iâll be good, whatever you want, please⊠I need- hck!â Your sobs were cut short as your body moved faster than your mind could process. Youâd nearly bitten into your tongue as you choked for breath, unable to fully comprehend exactly what happened.
The leggings and sweater you wore werenât warm at all to you. Even blankets seemed to have a chill that seeped through them. Right now though, warmth was creeping through your clothes as mint and copper flooded your senses. Heâd pulled you into his lap. The realization was shocking, but the next thought was thrown away when thin strong arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you into his chest.
âOhâ words died on your lips as a sensation you couldnât name overcame you. Youâd never realized how stiff you were until your body began to relax. Fully relax. âOhâŠâ it came out breathy and nearly excited, as you foolishly wrapped your arms around his neck and buried your face in the crook of it.
This was insanity.
He was all muscle unsurprisingly, but it didnât deter you from trying to mold yourself to him. Your much softer figure held in his arms so gently it made a new wave of tears threaten to spill for all new reasons. You straddled him, front flush against his own, as you struggled to accept that you were being held right now.
âThis?â His voice so close to your ear had a strange tingling sensation move from your neck down your spine. The shiver didnât go unnoticed, as his hold tightened and pressed you further against him. It wasnât necessarily the most pleasant way to be held, but it was many times better than nothing. You nodded against him, mumbling out a soft good as you basked in a moment of joy you hadnât experienced in what seemed like forever. It felt good to be held.
It felt even better when his hand moved and brushed through your hair. His touch light and careful, and you could imagine how he was noting every little detail of your reactions. The shivers and little sighs you released as he continued to just pet, touch, and hold you.
For once, you dreaded him stopping.
Even as your eyes grew heavy and body went limp in his arms, you dreaded when this would end. If you could just figure a way to keep him like this, you could envision your life being bearable.
âFeiâ you didnât make any effort to move.
âHmmâ his chest vibrated a little with his hum.
âCan I sleep with you?â It didnât take a genius to realize your question caused him to tense. His muscles tightening up and panic seeping into your system as you worry this took it too far. You both slept separately unless absolutely necessary, something you used to be grateful for and now hated. It was always freezing when you slept, no matter how warm it actually was.
You mightâve ruined his grace, overstepped if anything, but you needed to stay close to him physically. It wasnât a want anymore but a necessity.
âYesâ his word both shocked and elated you, and with a few more gentle pats in his arms, you were asleep.
Your cunt throbbed and ached, your lower belly pulled tight inside like a string about to snap. You tried closing your legs, whining as the hot wet sensation continued despite the light struggle you began to put up. It felt good, whatever dream you were having, even as the scent of mint and soap surrounded you.
Small whimpers and gasps became heavy panting as you felt raw heavy pleasure blossom in your core. Something prodded your entrance, wiggling bit by bit till you were penetrated and stretched on something long and hard. It moved and rubbed inside you. The warm pressure on your clit only pulling you further.
It was heaven, even as a slight burn inside had you back to whining and arching your back as your cunt stretched to allow something else inside. Fingers?
The thought was gone as the pleasure radiated throughout your whole body.
It wouldnât be the first wet dream youâd had, but it was the most realistic. The hot breath on your sensitive clit and twitching insides felt real, and the pleasure was so crisp. Your hands curled into the sheets, struggling between sleep and the impending orgasm threatening to take you.
Your eyes popped open as you came, body twisting as a sharp moan punctuated the air.
You were awake and finally realizing this wasnât a delusion or dream. Someone was lapping at your cunt, your thighs held open and pinned by two pale hands. The sensitivity and slight bewilderment of the situation had you struggling to form a coherent thought.
âFei-FeitanâŠ?â If there was one thing you knew with perfect certainty, it was that heâd never leave you alone long enough for someone to find you and do this. It couldnât be anyone else. Though the fact he was doing this was even more incomprehensible. He seemed so disgusted by touch, so detached from human emotions, it really never occurred to you that heâd have normal human urges. He was still lapping at your cunt, even as your eyes locked with his own, even darker in the barely lit room you realized was his own. You were in his bed, with his head buried between your legs, and his eyes locked on you.
âFei!â A weaker orgasm than the first was torn from you as you came again, sensitivity skyrocketing when he still continued to lick and suck on your clit. The room was spinning slightly, and your naked body began to cool a little as you sweat. Heâd stripped you. He mustâve, but things werenât really connecting in your mind as white hot pleasure was turning mildly painful.
âToo much!â You gasped and you had to force your hands to stay tangled in the sheet to not touch him. Your eyes watered and you made a pitiful sight with your darkening cheeks and open panting mouth. As your back arched to avoid his mouth, a sharp slap to your outer thigh had you yelping in pain.
His eyes narrowed, and it wasnât hard to see he became annoyed with your squirming.
âShut up.â His tone was low, no room for arguing or protest as you bit your lip to do as you were told. Trembling under him as he raised up to stare down at you between your spread legs. He looked gorgeous, something you hated to admit. His dark hair mildly tussled and pale skin a little flushed, his signature jacket gone. This wasnât the first youâd seen his naked chest, but it was certainly a rare occasion. His pants were still on but unbuttoned. His lips were the most sinful aspect, still glossy from your release. It was agonizing to be silent.
You should cry and beg for him to stop.
Instead you found your legs spreading just a bit wider as you looked up at him like he was your personal deity.
Debauched.
His slow and condescending smirk only made your breathing harder, chest tightening with anticipation and lust. He snorted, hand moving to spread your cunt open as he spit on it. You were panting now, barely following his order to stay quiet. It was difficult when you wanted to beg, for more, for him, to be touched.
âThis what you wanted? Whore.â His crude words didnât make this any less arousing, especially as he unzipped his pants and pulled his cock free. He was larger than youâd have ever expected, though it hardly mattered as he lined himself up and began pushing into your unused hole. Despite the wetness and prep, it was slightly painful as he filled you. The heaviness inside coupled with the burn was delicious as your hips moved to take more of him, deeper. You couldnât help the moan, the way your body shook and hands finally moved to touch him.
He was fast in securing both your wrists in one hand to pin above your head, his hips finally kissing the back of your thighs. You felt him twitch inside you, and it drove you wild.
âPlease Fei, oh-!â His hand came down on your thigh again, before he pulled his hips back and slammed into you. Your head goes back as you arch into him and moan louder, as he begins a brutal pace that has your chest moving in rhythm with his thrusts. His tip kissing your cervix has you unwinding into a submissive mess of whining and pleas. You didnât even know what you were begging for.
You either annoyed or aroused him further when he sneered and used his free hand to grip your jaw, thankfully not roughly as it ached nonetheless, forcing you to open wide before spitting into your mouth. He laughed when you clenched down harder, feeling the coil in your stomach tightening again as the pleasure increased.
âPretty slut likes being my bitch.â He hardly seemed out of breath despite how hard you were panting. You felt a bit unfair at how unfazed he seemed, but similarly proud at how he gazed down at you. Like you made him pleased. His gaze wasnât sharp, even bordering on warm despite how roughly he was fucking into you. All you could do was moan his name and beg.
Like a good little pet.
You could feel your orgasm coming again, and youâd meant to tell him, but his lips against yours shocked you silly. You didnât even bother closing your mouth, Feitan easily slipping his tongue inside and kissing you so sensually it had you coming on his cock. You could only whine into his mouth as his speed picked up and you became overwhelmed.
He pulled away as a string of saliva connected you two for a moment before breaking. He licked his lips before focusing on where the two of you were joined. Watching his cock disappear in your sopping wet little cunt. It was filthy and erotic.
âPatheticâ his words were cruel but he looked beyond pleased as he looked at your fucked out expression. Unable to even form words as he continued to bully your poor pussy. It was laughable to him, how sweet you are now, how obedient and submissive youâve finally become. All that fight and control gone, and in its place you lay now.
Heâd never tell you out loud how perfect you are. How absolutely precious he finds your attempts to run away from all the pleasure heâs giving you.
His training has been worth while, making you everything he wants and more. Though heâd hated the power you held over him, having you now, moaning as he drills your cunt and begging for more, takes away the shame. You were his werenât you? Then anything he wanted to do was fine, it wasnât shameful to fuck his toy. Especially when she whined and arched her back up to take him in even deeper, when she cried and came again around him.
Feitan saw you as much more than a measly pet. Those were replaceable. No, you were just his, whatever he wants you to be, but still his. Thatâs why when he wraps his hand around your pretty neck and squeezes, heâs beyond thrilled at how you relax. You throw caution to the wind and give him everything. Heâs not cutting off oxygen, but enough blood flow and air to keep you light headed and disoriented.
âWho do you belong to?â He knows you can hardly tell up from down right now. He knows how good heâs fucking you. Reducing you to this beautiful mess of feeling only. Heâs still him though, and it brings him only pleasure to add in another few painful smacks to your bruising thighs. âAnswer slutâ he asks again, being thrown for a power trip as you choke out, âYou!â to him.
His balls tightening signal heâs close, and the thought alone is enough to amuse him.
âGoing to cum inside.â His words donât register immediately to you, he can tell, but it seems all reality isnât gone from you when your eyes widen.
âI-I- pregnant! Iâll get-â he cuts you off with a chuckle, hand squeezing your throat enough to shut you up as he savors the sounds of wet squelching echoing in tune with his thrusts.
âMy personal cock sleeve doesnât get to talk.â The struggle you put up is worthless, but entertaining as he really does cum inside you, a soft grunt his only indication of release and overwhelming pleasure. Emptying himself inside and filling you with him. Marking you, painting you inside, signally you belong to him in every way now.
You lay exhausted and sore in his bed, cold as the various liquids dry on your skin and Feitan leaves.
Where he goes it doesnât matter. You let yourself lay for a little longer before deciding itâs best not to anger him by staying in his space. You move to sit up, wincing as your intimate areas ache, but pushing forward nonetheless to get cleaned up and change his sheets and any mess left behind.
You hate the hollow ache in your chest the most. You look at your thighs to see his cum leaking out of you, and a sliver of dread echoes in your mind that you truly could become pregnant. The possibilities too much for you to handle right now, as you shakily slide off the bed to stand on wobbly legs. He could be back any moment, and itâs best you get to work early. You work on removing the sheets, just as the bedroom door opens to reveal a fresh Feitan, his signature jacket in place as he holds a glass of water.
âWhat are you doing?â His question is asked in a slightly lower tone that usual, and you quickly freeze in place.
âI-Iâm cleaning upâŠ?â You donât mean to sound hesitant, but this situation is new and will require months of careful inquisition to avoid punishment under his hand. You knew better than to continue any task without his go ahead though.
You stand in silence as he observes you with a scrutinizing gaze.
âCome hereâ his order is curt, and while it terrifies you, you are quick to stumble over to him despite still being naked and filthy. You hate how badly you must look, barely able to walk while he is up and about his usual day as if nothing even happened. To him maybe nothing did happen, this being just the same as making a sandwich, and you wished the thought didnât hurt. Maybe this would just be a new pain to live with, and the sooner you accepted that, the better your pathetic existence would be.
You stand just before him, fingers twisting around each other as you stay with your head bowed to stare at his feet while you concentrated on staying upright despite how difficult it felt for your hips and legs to support you.
âNot hard enough?â His words confused you, as you peaked up beneath your lashes to look at him curiously.
âI-I donât understandâŠâ
âDidnât fuck you hard enough?â You froze in shock and slight fear, because what did that mean? He fucked you too hard in your personal opinion, and your poor slit agreed.
âY-you did thoughâŠ?â You were unsure of what was happening, his gaze not giving anything away.
âGet back on the bed. I didnât say I was done with you.â Your eyes widened, taking a moment too long to register what he said before his foot took a step closer to you and you scrambled back onto the sheet-less bed in a panic. He paused, observing you again, before tilting his head.
âNext time Iâm done with you, donât moveâ heâs undoing his pants again, and moving towards you.
âIâll fuck you good this time.â His words menacing and mean, and youâre left with little wiggle room as he closes in.
Itâs his job after all to clean you up and piece you back together, and if you can fix yourself when heâs done, he clearly didnât a good job the first round.
