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How resentful is Stanford is Stanley, being a kick ass space pirate, like he dreamed of as a child? All while his dreams of being a world renowned scientist has been utterly raped and murdered, while being crucified on a cross.
Who do you think he blames more for that Bill or Lee?
He defo blames Bill more, at least consciously. but there’s a nasty little part of his brain that resents Stan. Of course there is, he managed to make a life for himself out of nothing!
meanwhile, Ford could have had everything, if it weren’t all taken away from him. If Lee had never broken his science fair project…
he shoves those thoughts deep in the back of his mind, to only come out and torture him during the darkest nights. They’re thoughts and feelings that make him feel queasy. He shouldn’t feel about his own twin brother this way, not when he DOOMED HIM TO THE MULTIVERSE for 30 YEARS. Ford feels like a bad person. He feels like if he had those thought, it must mean that he fundamentally is someone capable of hurting his brother in the ways people think. And at that point, he may as well have done it.
PSA: Those are called INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS. Everyone has them and they are not a statement on your moral character! No matter how horrible they are! Ik cus they kicked my ass when I was 19 worrying I was a horrible person cus my brain kept thinking horrible stuff (it sucked). I think it’s important to know that.
