#feeling existential today

deep down, you know you're still that same 12 year old.

everybody else has grown, but you haven't

doesn't that make you jealous?

I say all these things, but will continue to do nothing for I simply do not know what to do. The fear to act is a shameful prison. But how does self-awareness help? This post means nothing. It won’t help. I know it won’t. But saying that I know it won’t doesn’t help. People are dying and will continue to simply because we as a species have evolved so far as to learn to detriment ourselves. And for what? We live in an ever crumbling world that slowly builds itself back up just to be crushed yet again. History rhymes with itself. There’s no way to learn from our mistakes if the few that don’t are the ones to act. So we’re stuck in an endless cycle of pain that ends up being forgotten.

People die but will end up as nothing more than a name on a memorial. A number. A statistic. Some will go down as a hero or a villain, a name so common you’d be shocked if someone didn’t know it. But how are those people more valuable then the fallen soldier on the memorial? Forgotten under the sea of others. But there’s nothing we can really do to fix that when there’s 100,000 other names that deserve the same treatment.