"Please, fight this. You have to fight it. You have to live."
In his defense, heâs trying his damnedest to do what sheâs telling him to. That doesnât make it easy, though.
Itâs buried itself deep in his shoulderbladeâthe axe, that is. For all of his talk about how lances were better weapons than swords, they didnât stand a chance against these sort of blades. Shinonome didnât stand a chance against them when he was approached from behind like he had been. The wound burned agonizingly, but he didnât scream. He couldnât scream: Matoi was freaked out enough as it was, and if his father heard him, he wouldnât focus on the fight that wasnât finished yet.
He fights to keep his breathing steady and force it to slow in hopes of getting his pulse to stop racingâto keep him from losing more blood than heâs got to. Shinonome doesnât want to admit the taste of fear that rises and rises more and more in the back of his throat as time plods on horrifically slowly.
He doesnât want to die. He doesnât want to die like this; not here; not now. Heâs not ready. Heâs terrified. Heâs not ready to go.
ăâŠItâs going to be okay,ă he says while a big, dumb grin plasters itself across his features, ăall right? Everythingâs going to be just perfect.ă
If nothing else, he can try to keep his cousin from being as scared as he is. Thatâs what a leaderâs supposed to doâŠisnât heâŠ?