"Please, fight this. You have to fight it. You have to live."
In his defense, heās trying his damnedest to do what sheās telling him to. That doesnāt make it easy, though.
Itās buried itself deep in his shoulderbladeāthe axe, that is. For all of his talk about how lances were better weapons than swords, they didnāt stand a chance against these sort of blades. Shinonome didnāt stand a chance against them when he was approached from behind like he had been. The wound burned agonizingly, but he didnāt scream. He couldnāt scream: Matoi was freaked out enough as it was, and if his father heard him, he wouldnāt focus on the fight that wasnāt finished yet.
He fights to keep his breathing steady and force it to slow in hopes of getting his pulse to stop racingāto keep him from losing more blood than heās got to. Shinonome doesnāt want to admit the taste of fear that rises and rises more and more in the back of his throat as time plods on horrifically slowly.
He doesnāt want to die. He doesnāt want to die like this; not here; not now. Heās not ready. Heās terrified. Heās not ready to go.
ćā¦Itās going to be okay,ć he says while a big, dumb grin plasters itself across his features, ćall right? Everythingās going to be just perfect.ć
If nothing else, he can try to keep his cousin from being as scared as he is. Thatās what a leaderās supposed to doā¦isnāt heā¦?