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Another sketch commission for @wolfloner-official, Tony’s trying to introduce Loki’s son to hot chocolate but Vali is extremely sceptical about consuming dark brown liquid.

Would y'all believe that when I started FBiNS the plan was for Tony and Loki to be switches?

Then I started writing more, and actual plot and character development happened, and uh.

Except that I still headcanon Loki as a bottom, generally speaking.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017), Deadpool - All Media Types, Deadpool (Comics) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Peter Parker/Wade Wilson Characters: Peter Parker, Wade Wilson, May Parker (Spider-Man), Eleanor Camacho, Tony Stark, Loki (Marvel), Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Thor (Marvel), Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Happy Hogan, Emily Preston, Weasel, Dopinder (Marvel) Additional Tags: Canon-Typical Violence, Minor Violence, accidental top Peter Parker, Hand Jobs, Wade Wilson Needs A Hug, Loki (Marvel) Needs a Hug, Everyone Needs A Hug, Sharing a Bed, Moving In Together, references to rape, not shown, and not a character we meet, Morally Ambiguous Character, Schizophrenia, Borderline Personality Disorder, Hallucinations, Mildly Dubious Consent, Good Parent Wade Wilson, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Cinnamon Roll Ellie, Demisexuality Series: Part 16 of Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces Summary:

Commission done for @wolfloner-official‘s beautiful fic series, Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces! Sometimes Peter needs some advice and guidance and who best to get it from than an Actual God?

Hello friends and...one family member (that I know of).

If you follow me here, you know I’ve been poking around and vaguely active.

If you’re here from the link from Remedy 2.0 maybe I just disappeared off the face of the earth for nearly a month. Oops.

So, I’m here to talk about the elephant in the room, FBiNS-wise.

I’ve scrapped Remedy 1.0 from canon. Per request I reuploaded it for the handful of people who enjoyed it, and because there’s stuff in there that I’m proud of, damn it.

Upon posting Remedy, I was met with an absolute backlash. Which, sure. Emotional response from people. I’m kind of flattered/honored. Now. At the time, it felt awful.

Don’t misunderstand, I don’t mind constructive criticism. In fact, I’m glad to receive it. It’s how I grow and get better.

I had a few reasons for abandoning Remedy 1.0 as it was (and it’s not because of all the angry messages, although those did play a part, ngl)

I couldn’t find a resolution to the conflict I had created that felt natural/right/in-character.

(and this is thanks to someone giving me some great feedback and I’m so sorry to them because I didn’t save their username before initially deleting Remedy 1.0) I, quite unintentionally, had created a legitimate abusive relationship. (Entrapment, specifically.)

Could Tony just leave the relationship? Well, technically, yes. But he’s also functionally immortal and humans are aggressively social creatures. There was no way of introducing Sigyn to the relationship without it having been mentioned waaaay back when, pre-apple. Which, for those playing along at home, Loki did on...well, it was more than a whim, but it wasn’t fully thought out enough. Which is also really fucked up and dysfunctional but, well. The day Loki properly thinks something through is the day that pigs will fly. Or something like that.

I got a bit off topic, my bad.

So, post deluge of angry, I spent a good week or so having a small existential crisis. I’m fine now. Back into my writing groove. Sort of. But everything I wrote felt wrong. I couldn’t fit the above-mentioned issues with the story’s conflict into any sort of resolution that I liked.

Then my Dad was in the hospital for a week. He tripped, hit his head, it was a scary thing for all. He’s ok! No permanent damage, just a slightly traumatized daughter.

Back to writing. STILL nothing felt right.

Then I got that previously mentioned lovely comment that laid it out in black and white. The issue was that I was writing about abuse. Unintentionally, of course. (On both my and Loki’s part, fwiw.) But I finally had the words to put together what was wrong.

So I did the only thing I could do in that situation: salt and burn 1.0, and rebuild. That’s the lovely thing about fanfiction. Oh, you fucked up? That’s ok, you can delete it and try again!

So, now we have Remedy 2.0, and while I’m not completely happy with it, it is going to let me move forward.

And if you’re reading this before 2.0 itself, I hope you enjoy the new content I threw in, and are excited to see what happens next!

So, what’s next from Haarii?

Writing more FBiNS, of course! Continuing FMLYHM (Kinktober 2018), because I said I’d write it all, and damn it I’m going to. Maybe I’ll even finish it in 2018, lol

I’m very tempted to write some Venom/Eddie one-shots or something. We’ll see.

Also maybe some Penguin/Riddler after binging Gotham the last few weeks, lol.

There’s a Digimon fanfic I’ve been working on off and on since I was in high school, and I’d kind of like to actually write it out.

A few original fic ideas bouncing around in my head. Hohoho. Would anyone be interested to see some original stuff from me?

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017), Deadpool - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Peter Parker/Wade Wilson Characters: Peter Parker, Wade Wilson, Tony Stark, Loki (Marvel) Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Domestic Fluff, Loss of Virginity, Dildos, college applications are dumb, Sex Toys, Anal Play, Talking, actually talking out issues, schizophrenic Wade Wilson, Bottom Peter Parker/Top Wade Wilson, POV Wade Wilson, POV Peter Parker, Wade Wilson Needs A Hug, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Loki is a Good Dad Series: Part 22 of Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces, Part 7 of FBiNS: SpideyPool Summary:

“Sometimes,” Peter whispered, “I miss when stuff was normal.”

“What did normal look like?”

 “Go to school. Paper route in the summers. Biggest worry being a test or dealing with Flash or practicing enough to try to get at least third chair in band.” He couldn't quite hold back a sob. “My nightmares used to be about forgetting how to play a trumpet. Now it's all getting crushed by buildings or being eaten by giant wolves or getting killed by my boyfriend.”

Peter and Wade finally sit down and talk things out.

Oh my gosh, thank you so much for this!

I was pretty discouraged for a while but I think I've bounced back!

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Iron Man (Movies), Thor (Movies) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Loki/Tony Stark Characters: Loki (Marvel), Hel | Hela (Norse Religion & Lore), Tony Stark, Sigyn (Norse Religion & Lore), Fenrisúlfr | Fenrir (Norse Religion & Lore), Peter Parker, Wade Wilson, Background & Cameo Characters Additional Tags: Canon-Typical Violence, Self-Esteem Issues, Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Tony Stark Needs a Hug, Loki (Marvel) Needs a Hug, Suicidal Thoughts, Self-Harm, Kink Negotiation, Porn with Feelings, Praise Kink, Hand Jobs, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Dom/sub, BDSM, Painplay, Risk Aware Consensual Kink, Dacryphilia, it's only science if you write it down, Top Loki (Marvel), Bottom Tony Stark, Dom Loki (Marvel), Sub Tony Stark, Masochism, Sadism, Safeword Use, Good BDSM Etiquette, Subspace, Possessive Behavior Summary:

Re-uploading this for the handful of people who seemed to enjoy it. No longer canon to the FBiNS storyline.

  Fenrir and Váli were snarling and snapping at each other, and Tony was pretty sure the only thing keeping them from actually making contact was the bursts of ice that Hel kept tossing at their faces when they got too close to each other. Thankfully she was quick enough to dodge out of the way when one of the wolves turned towards her instead.

Reuploaded for the handful of people who really liked this work, haha. It’s no longer canon to FBiNS, but oh well.