#fbd vent

cleaning your depression room is so daunting

me trying to reach the company manager that is supposed to hire me but instead getting the answering machine every time i call for two days already: IS ANYBODY THERE? DOES ANYBODY CARE???????

hot take: if you need ai to write parts of your fic for you, maybe you shouldn't be writing it to begin with (?)

sometimes I feel like there's too much of me and my stuff in the hamburr tag like. idk why. I hate taking up space and sometimes I feel like I do

me core: sitting in the kitchen in a foreign country not having seen your family for more than a year eating leftovers while crying to what was i made for feeling like you're thirteen again and homesick and abandoned

Love how one single date with a man ruined my perception of physical affection and intimacy and I'm having flashbacks every time I can smell the cologne this guy was wearing or write intimacy like kissing/holding hands/looking into each other's eyes

Still in awe at the ficwriters in this fandom (especially the hamburr ficwriters), like the character analysis??? The language???? Idk how to express this feeling, but like the amount of thought and life put into the works is so fascinating to me bc I know for a fact that I *can't* understand these characters as good as the authors do, I *can't* express everything as eloquently as they do- it's beautiful and I'm full of admiration and good kind of jealosy