theres a VERY big difference between saying “i personally dont do/say ___ because of this” vs saying “you CANT do/say ___”

i really need these tiktok “coaches/advisors” to actually learn what law of assumption is before feeding all these harmful lies to ppl just trying to better themselves

this literally JUST happened like omg

so for the past few weeks ive been trying to get a doctor, and a few days ago my mom told me i finally had an appointment set up.

i went about my day as usual, but then it dawned on me: i have to get bloodwork done ૮₍ɵ̷﹏ɵ̷̥̥᷅₎ა

i have a HUGE phobia of needles and my pain tolerance is shit, like no joke i finally stopped screaming and boohoo crying over shots when i was 17 (for the record im 20 so this was literally just 3 years ago…)

that being said, i started manifesting i wouldnt have to get bloodwork done on Tuesday cause i still need WAYYY more time to calm my nerves. (now i want to make it very clear my desire is: no bloodwork on TUESDAY)

i actually didnt use any of my regular methods, i just stayed firm in the thought that on tuesday i wouldnt have to get my blood taken. and guess mfing what???

i was in the bathroom getting ready for the appointment (still staying persistent that i wouldnt get bloodwork done today) and i overheard my mom talking on the phone. i figured it was a relative or something but then i noticed she had her “professional” voice on.

im literally getting edged by a fuckass app im so irritated alsjfdh

i havent posted anything in MONTHS cause its so hard for me to put my thoughts into coherent sentences /////(>﹃ <)//////

im also going through the process of slightly rebranding my blog all i did was change my username so now i have to add my new user to all my older posts