Even since I can remember my teachers and my report cards always said, “not reaching potential” “very smart but doesn’t work hard” “doesn’t listen well” “easily distracted” and I always tried to explain to my teachers and parents that I found concentrating hard and that I really wanted to work hard but it was like two sides of my brain were fighting, one wanted to study, the other thought the dust in the sun beams was fascinating.

It was an uphill battle, in year 7 or 8 I took what is called the midyis test, it basically can tell the potential of students and how smart they are and such, my results were up there with the A* students in the year above, no one knew why I wasn’t achieving what I should and they put it down to me just being a lazy child. I did go to a doctor around that year who hinted at ADHD but no one around knew much about it where I lived at the time so it was brushed off.

When I went into year 10 I started going to a psychologist and they loved me, I had everything apparently, but I was luckily she diagnosed me with ADHD and prescribed Concerta, we didn’t know what dosage I needed so we had ups and down, one day at school when they gave me a too high dosage I swear I was able to put my hand through my desk. But after a while we figured it out, and for once my grades started reflecting my IQ I moved up sets in my classes. IGCSE results were okay, I still had problems with studying, revision and focusing but I was working on it.

Now as I study my A levels at home, I still do struggle a lot with my focus and drive, like right now I should be studying my biology work, but you just have to deal with it. I was unlucky to only get diagnosed at 14ish so alot of my schooling was very hard on me, I thought i’d share my story since many kids are out there not knowing exactly whats wrong with them.

Heres what I have to say, theres nothing wrong with you, you have a very hyperactive mind, it works faster and is stronger than alot of the other kids around you, you are special in so many ways, talk to your parents talk to your teachers, asking them to help you, to get diagnosed doesn’t make you crazy or mad, it makes you a stronger person.

Favorite fanfiction and why?

Cast My Soul to the Sea by Avalon. 

It.Is.Perfect. It has an alternate storyline which is just GORGEOUS. The whole thing is phenomenal if you're a fan of Jedi Apprentice fan fiction. There is no proper way to describe why it is so awesome, but it is beautiful. I've had it saved on my computer (and re-read it annually) for over 13 years. JesusCHRIST! I'm old. If you want to check out Jedi Apprentice fan fiction at an awesome archive go to the site Jedi Apprentice: Fan Dimensions. 

If you could live in any universe e.g Avengers universe, which one would you live in and why?

I would want to live in the Star Trek universe. People are at an enlightened state and I could work in freaking space. Love it. 

Whats your OTP and what draws you to ship them together?

Erm My OTP of all freaking time is Mulder/Scully. Do I really have to explain it? It's obvious. "He was a boy, she was a girl" kind of situation except with aliens, science, red hair, boyish charm, and Skinner. 

If you could be on the red carpet accompanying someone, who would it be?

Jennifer Lawrence. 

What lessons do you have tomorrow and is that a good day for you?

I have SO MANY lessons tomorrow. Yep, it's a good day.

What character is your personality personified?

I haven't found a fictionalized version of myself yet. 

What are your main fandoms and which is your favorite?

I have a bazillion (like any fangirl), but my TOP will always be Supernatural. Other fandoms that nearly reach the top are Sherlock, Merlin, Sleepy Hollow, Chuck, X-Files, Stargate (all but Universe - though I did love the nerd), In Plain Sight, Lost Girl, Star Trek, Star Wars, Marvel (all, any), and about a mazillion more of them. You should ask what fandoms I LOATH...that would be a hard list to make. 

If you could be a human version of someone e.g Loki, Thor which character would you be?

If I could be the human version of any fictional character it would have to be Spock, because that dude be stellar at math. I need that kind of skill for my grade's sake. 

What part of tumblr makes you feel safe and part of something special, and what parts upset you?

Supernatural fandom. Aaaaand. Supernatural fandom. :P. Two sides of the same coin. One a bit dirty and yell-y and mean-y and the other gorgeous and wonderful and beautiful and kind. 

If you could morph into an animal at will what animal would it be?

This used to be easy. Years ago I would have yelled "HORSE!" without thinking, but I'm pretty sure I'd go for a fox these days. Most likely a Fennec. 

Tumblr heartthrob? '

We don’t personally know of any leviathan!dean fics. However, here’s a leviathans pretending to be dean fic.

Oh, and a rec list that that has a bunch of leviathan related stuff (including a couple leviathan!dean) by carrionofmywaywardson: oozy fics.