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Sugar Pine 7 is over.

I don’t really know what to say. I had stopped watching them for a while and when I finally came back, when I was finally interested in them again, they announced they were shutting down less than a month later. 

It fucking sucks.

Sugar Pine 7 used to be my life. I started watching them just as they go their first office, back in May of 2017. As soon as I watched a video, I knew they were my favourite thing to ever happen and I immediately watched the rest of season 1 in chronological order. I was so invested that I would spend my days thinking about SP7 and playing alternate video ideas in my head. They were a group of entertainment that kept me going and helped me to develop my sense of humour. Whenever something went wrong and I just needed to turn off life for a while, I always went to straight to their videos. They were the one thing that seemed to always put a smile on my face no matter what.

They also got me back into tumblr. My previous tumblr account and fandom experiences hadn’t been great. The one before SP7 was full of toxic, judgemental, cliquey people and it felt as though if you didn’t have a group of online friends in it, then you didn’t really matter. It sucked and it scared me off of the app completely. When I made an SP7 tumblr though, I found a small group of people who were creative and open and welcoming and allowed me to be invested. I got involved. I made gifs, edits, theories and memes. I answered questions, posted a daily/weekly theory question for people to talk about and genuinely tried my best to make my blog and this fandom feel like a collaborative community. It was a lot of work, but that year and a bit of having my blog as place where people liked to come to talk and laugh was amazing and I don’t think I’ll ever get to experience something quite like that again.

I remember falling out of love with SP7, and feeling guilty for it. I wish I could like them just as much as I had in the beginning and I think the hardest part of it all was that unlike other fandoms where your personality changes and you grow out of them, it felt like SP7 grew out of me, and my personality still hadn’t changed enough to follow. It sucked and hurt and it was hard to come to terms with the boys doing things that I didn’t like or care for, and my dedication to this blog seemed to dwindle as well. I don’t think I ever really got over getting bored of SP7 to be honest, I’ve always kind of felt like I abandoned them. I can’t even watch their old videos without feeling a sense of nostalgia and shame, and I don’t really know why that is. I’m guessing it’s because part of me feels as though I let them down, and I’m not sure if I actually did.

And now they’re gone, and it feels like an ending which is just bitter with no sweet. I loved these boys. I really did. And I don’t think I’m going to ever be able to aptly put into words how much they meant to me and how grateful I am for every video they ever made. There wasn’t a day that went by that they didn’t make me laugh or cry right up until the end of my interest. I was already watching AH, but they were the extra push I needed to get into RT and because of that, I’ve made friends online that I love talking to and another community that I may not be as involved in, but enjoy nonetheless.

So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you boys for what you created and for what you achieved. It is something that you should always be proud of and that I will always be proud of on behalf of Sugar Pine 7. You really did good.

And finally, to all the gimps and cucks and dirty boys of the Sugar Pine 7 fandom who EVER liked, reblogged, commented, asked, submitted, followed, or even LOOKED at my posts and blogs at some point and went ‘hey, that’s pretty cool’ thank you. Thank you so so much. You’ve made my tumblr experience fantastic and have helped in creating a dying and now dead community something that I will always cherish and appreciate, even after SP7 is long forgotten. Your interactions made me laugh and smile and cry tears of joy and my heart swelled every time somebody said they appreciated this blog or me. Comments like that made my day, and they always will.

If you would ever like to talk to me about anything, please do. I would love to keep in touch with anybody from this fandom, even if haven’t talked before.

This post is too long and I’ve rambled too much so I’m gonna leave it here.

Thank you all for being good listeners, and may the members of SP7 always be the gay pirate, tall skinny cuck, water warrior, anubis worshipper, resented disney boy, FAJAM, tired helper, possible murder, and An-- what ever his name was -- of my dreams.

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