#faediaries

i feel like ive been bombed with hit after hit for the last month and a half. it's been so constant and draining. i feel like ive lost the people closest to me and it's all my fault. i feel stupid for believing in something, someone. i feel stupid for letting myself feel wanted. i feel stupid for feeling important. i want to crawl into a whole and die, i want to not care about the progress ive made and spiral, i want to disappear from everyone's lives. and i think i should. i think there's something very wrong with me, im not worthy of love, or friendship. i hate myself so much and it hurts. i feel so so god damn alone.