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{ Sex + Romance Headcanons | Still Accepting }
💗 Has my muse ever been in love?
(I answered this before but I can find where but I remembered I saved the hc on my computer so I’m just going to repost it here oops haha forgive me)
She was once, but she didn’t really come to terms with it until long after the relationship had ended. It was Thomas Howe, Rendon Howe’s youngest son. They had a discreet relationship for a couple of years, but Thomas was insistent that they go public and get married and Nevarine ended the relationship abruptly because the notion scared her. It wasn’t really the thought of being married to him that scared her; it was what marriage represents to a girl born to nobility who isn’t in line for inheritance.
Thomas was good to her, and if it wasn’t for everything that happened during the Blight (including his death as well as his father’s usurpation of her family) she would have reconciled with him and accepted his proposal. Later when thinking back on everything that happened between them, she realizes that she really did love him and regrets that she didn’t get to tell him that. Sure, they’d told each other they loved each other many times, but Nevarine had always treated it as “puppy love” before while Thomas was quite serious with his statements. She truly believes he deserved better from her in the end, regardless of whether they ended up together or not.
In her game canon and verses where she romances Alistair, this is part of why she has little hesitation at the notion of marrying him and becoming his queen. She loves him, and she’s willing to put aside her reservations about marriage to give him the devotion and support she feels he deserves from her. It’s scary, thinking that she might become trapped by the lifestyle of a woman of nobility as she always feared, but even more terrifying would be the thought of losing someone she loves once again for the sake of her courtly freedom. She will not make the same mistake twice.
