bORED with masc queers who talk masc privildge but don’t actually address their own paternalistic attitudes.
You never set a time that you wanted me to get back to you and so I thought that since I had taken my time getting back to you before, I had time now. (2.5weeks is kinda long to make a girl wait) I didn’t want to react and say things out of line, but now that is no use. I am not responsible for your feelings, I never was and you blaming me for opening up, falling in love, getting your hopes up is not my fault. (when you fucks with someone, you fucks with someone. don’t think you get to walk away from messes you helped create and act like you had nothing to do with it.) your email reads as emotionally manipulative. (its a blow off letter, i don’t want you back or anything from you. i very little want to manipulate… if by manipulate you mean get an ounce of respect from you, then yeah, but it’s a little to late for that) Also, you have no fucking idea what I am going through and it’s incredibly insulting to assume that I am not doing emotional labor or am impacted by this. (no, you’re right, i have no fucking clue bc you’ve never shared anything with me. and at the same time. i don’t care bc you aren’t actually addressing how you are a paternalistic person with me, so yeah, i don’t care. and don’t curse at me masc queer) You can speak of me however you like, that reads like an emotionally manipulative threat and it’s your prerogative. (nope, not manipulative, just telling you how it is) Since I know I am mad right now, I will bring your concerns to my friends and therapist later this week and work on anything that needs to be worked on. I have never claimed to be perfect, nor will I ever claim to be. (neither did I) I am going to make this clear, at this point, I don’t want to hear back from you. If you respond you will not hear back from me. Our interactions are unnecessarily dramatic (whoa there! why not just call me HYSTERICAL? but im just a woman so it makes sense that i battle with a case of hysterics)and from what it sounds, it hurts you further to expect me to do something that I won’t do. You have expectations of me that I cannot meet and I am not in a good space to try to read your needs and cushion your emotions. I wish you the best and think it’s best that you not respond to this. (uh, obvious, my last letter was a blow off letter so, NO, YOU LEAVE ME ALONE!)
