I was in a hurry this afternoon, with the desire of getting work things done.
I was nauseous when I woke up and had to do stuff in my to-do list slower than my normal pace. My 3-year-old daughter, Gianna, also decided to be extra bored from our 14-day quarantine, so she kept on asking me to do this, and do that, even during my morning devotions. (Usually she'd just read when she sees me reading...)
Anyway, after lunch Gianna had a very bad tummy ache and threw a tantrum. We tried comforting her, her Dad tried to help but she wouldn't accept any comfort or help. (Much like us, sometimes, huh?)
Out of desperation, and probably exhaustion, she stopped and walked over to me, and asked for a hug. I tried carrying her so she can take a nap, but she'd get agitated as if ready to throw another tantrum.
So, I just let her be. I stopped everything I was doing, just held on to her. I was on the bed, while she was hugging me standing up-- and she fell asleep. I tried moving her or carrying her, but she would wake up and cry.
I decided to just stop moving, and read. What else can I do? Our internet stopped working while in the middle of all this hullabaloo so I can't really do work on my phone. Oh well.
But you know what, I'm glad I read my book. Why? Because God reminded me of some very important things He's been working on with me, something He has been continuously teaching me since the start of the pandemic... to let go, continue to trust Him, always listen to Him, and to stop hurrying.
"We were designed to go at a slower pace, to ponder, to process thoughts one at a time. And when we try to go at computer speed, we miss out on what's important on life.
Hurry robs us of the beauty God has placed in front of us and the grace that others so desperately need. Hurry is also a tool Satan uses to undermine God's plan for us." —Glynnis Whitwer
This struck me real good, it literally wiped out everything I was currently thinking. I paused and I continued reading...
"Hurry leads us to jump to conclusions... Hurry keeps me from being able to think deeply about a situation and compe up with the right response."
Okay, I got that. But there's more...
"Rushing doesn't make me better at anything... hurry doesn't guarantee success."
"Hurry steals my contentment... When I'm in a hurry, I don't appreciate the beauty around me. My awareness of others is diminished in my increased focus on the goal. I miss the small details of life that bring me the most joy in my rush.
Contentment isn't found in the big splashes but in the gentle ripples."
Wow, exactly what I needed today.
My daughter is still fussy because of her tummyache, but she was able to sleep a bit. I pray her tummy ache stops soon. For now, I need to focus on her, on this.
Remember, go about each day, a step at a time.