#expxsed

I’m heavy again and you’re gone.

You sliced me open with a knife made of your words, “I touched her,” it breaks the surface of my skin, “I kissed her,” blood pools, “I fucked her,” everything fades to grey. I’m dizzy again and the room is spinning too fast to get a grip. Oh god I think I’m gonna be sick. And here we are again, sitting on your couch. You don’t want me this time, I’m in shambles. Your silence picks me apart like I am a poorly written story. I’m collapsing again and into myself I go. Losing myself to you all over again but you don’t care to find me this time.

maybe it wasn’t meant to be and that’s okay, i am coming to terms with it. yes there are days where the heartache is more than i can ignore, but there are also days where i am so full of pure happiness that you don’t come to mind. i am learning to live without you and to love myself once again. even though sometimes i swear i heard your voice, and you come back in my dreams, i know this is for the best. i hope you’re finding your peace.

youve been gone but my heart still aches