Ever since I started thinking about my gender, and not taking my birth gender as is, it's been...strange. Like there was always a strange feeling of wrong at the back of my mind. I've tried various labels and pronouns, but nothing really clicked for me. There weren't many signs either, stuff which (I assume) people could see as gendered I just don't. Dresses are just cloth, and hair is just something the body makes. It was recently that I've actually...found a term that described how I've felt. It's a niche term I found on a gender wiki. Exploragender: A gender term for those who are constantly questioning their gender identity, feeling as though one gender term in particular [is] never quite right. It felt so...validating that someone went through something similar to me, that I wasn't just an outcast of outcasts. I am no longer stuck in the gender limbo, I chose to me here. It gets better. You aren't alone. Who you are? It's alright.
thank you for sharing this! there's a lot of power that comes with that feeling when you realize you weren't as alone as you felt you were. Genderqueer and agender are some related terms to explore too!
