#experienceproject

~Neko

Experience Project Troubles *** My response to his problem

Experience Project Troubles ***This popped up after I responded to his question

So I signed up for experience project and ever since I found it I've been wanting to talk to people about experiences I've had like my schizophrenia and my night terrors. I wanted to see how common it is and well there's people out there but as soon as I started sharing my experiences someone who I didn't even know started talking shit about me like they knew me. The thing is its pretty much anonymous unless you tell people who you are but this person that was bashing me knew stuff about me and was focusing on my work life calling me a cheap hooker. Now dealing with people calling me down is nothing new for me especially with my schizophrenia. (I didn't imagine this FYI). I know how to tell the difference and I've never seen things that were not there just heard stuff. Anyways I haven't been working ever since Larry has been in my life so that plus being used to the negative comments it didn't really affect me. What bugs me though is how could this person know who I was? Also why are they bashing me as soon as I want to reach out to people. Its really weird and reminded me of Tila Tequila's. Video about the Illuminati and how they have people that comment shit to stop people from taking someone's post or video or anything on social media seriously. Its kinda freaky but im sure if Tila's video shines any truth they know about my schizophrenia and how people would most likely not take my experiences all too seriously. Anyhoo just had to write about it maybe there's more of you out there dealing with negative comments on social media especially when your trying to do good. Makes me wonder how long its been going on without me even knowing. Anyway they were telling someone who I was trying to help that I relied on sex bribes to survive. Im not going to lie I have relied on the escorting world to get by sometimes but for the most part I rely on my disability benefits because I have days where my schizophrenia gets to me and I can't function because im on the verge of breaking down. What I do or did to get by shouldn't matter when im trying to give support or reach out to people to help. Im getting stronger and everytime I break down I feel it and who ever these people are on experience project dont know that I have been bred to not let this sort of thing bug me. It just bugs me that whoever im trying to reach out to or help might listen to them and get the wrong idea of me. I'm also scared because who im talking to may not be who I think it is and trying to stop me. I know because im schizo people will just label this an episode but take a closer look around and dont pay attention to the negative. You have to think of peoples motives. If it comes from the heart then its love and anything else is just negative or there to stop the love. I hope someone can read this and know they aren't alone or be woken up to this type of thing happening. The only thing I got from it was someone was trying to stop me from help and helping others. Try harder if it does happen because the fact it even happens means your doing something right 👍👍👍

So today I actually registered on the Experience Project. Some of the stories on there just breaks my heart. Some are sweet. Just type : ‘I fell in love with my best friend’. If I’m in a similar situation, I think I’ll be in trouble.

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