There is no way on earth that I would NOT tell this. I was standing in the line, it was still going to take a while until the gates would open, and I was just minding my own business. Until. I hear someone next to me say the key words, Jakob and Axel. The person spoke finnish, and my ear picked up on it immediately. "Jakob ja Axel tulevat tuolta."

HJELLOOO WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY ARE WALKING THERE????? I TURN AROUND AND IT DOESN'T TAKE ME LONG TO SPOT TWO VERY FAMILIAR FIGURES WALKING ALONG THE ROAD IN REGULAR CLOTHES AND WITH BACKPACKS. THEY HAD THEIR SUNGLASSES, BUT I SAW THAT THEY WERE LOOKING OUR WAY, ESPECIALLY JAKOB WHO WAS GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR AS HE WATCHED US AAAHHGJFDNVJKDDJS

MY STOMACH DROPS, IMMEDIATE ADRENALINE IN MY BODY. I'M FUMBLING TO REACH @residentraccoon STANDING NEXT TO ME TO GET HER ATTENTION AND STARTED STAMMERING SOMETHING ABOUT THEIR NAMES WITH A MIX OF "TTHERE THE THEY ARE WALKING AXEL AXEL JAKOB THE LOOK THEY JAKOB AXEL LOOK" AND I WAS SHAKING AND TRYING TO STAY NORMAL AND BEHAVE IN FRONT OF THEM AND AFTER THEY HAD GONE PAST US I JUST STARED INTO NOTHING WHILE BEING SPEECHLESS AND TREMBLING AND LAUGHING AND SQUEALING ADN

I was losing my mind with residentraccoon. I get that she would react like this (LOVED TO EXPERIENCE THIS WITH HERRRR JDVNJDFDSFJN WHAT THE HELL) but why me?? I HAVE SEEN THEM MANY TIMES NOW??? WHAT THE FUCK. It's different to see them out in the wild though. IT WAS INSANe. I don't know if anyone else had seen them, because no one seemed to react to it. I don't know. Or we are just insane. But that was one of the best moments from that day, actually that is one of the absolute best moments in my life, it felt so good, and I know that being alone in that moment wouldn't have been as great. We gushed about them after it had happened oh my goooood it was the best thing ever.

It's a good thing that we didn't see Kevin walking there like that. Right at that moment I would have ran away to never be seen again (if my legs would have been even working). I know that would have been the end of both of us.

It's time for the gig to start!

During Karar i arbeit, uhh… where my eyes went, was… well. You know, That Part. But I swear it hypnotised me… How he moved his hips with precise control from side to side and slightly forward, I had the perfect, unrestricted view to that. I could write a pages' worth about this. Other times when I've seen him do that, it's been smooth and going easily with an invisible, relaxed flow, like waves, loose fingers curled onto his side. His hips have had a continuous movement, when extended forward, he has pulled them back with the same calm and soft confidence that he takes to the other side as well, never stopping the flow. But there was something different in him today… This time his his hips were snappy, but not uncontrolled. He stopped to the furthest he wanted to go, and with the same path came back, using the same trajectory again and again without letting his hips wander. He was firm with it, just like the beat was, which came the loudest through all the music. It was dull and strong and vast, the perfect rhythm for Kevin to use. I just could not take my eyes off of him. The beat and the movement was all I knew at that moment, and everything else tuned out into the background. You can read this from a pervert's perspective, but I will also offer you an option for an admirer's perspective who finds the smallest shifts, lines and shapes, colours, behaviours, facial twitches and voice changes of his to be the most interesting subject in the whole possible world.

Oh and he didn't sing his long note at the end of his verse :( I can't remember what his rawwr was like. But what I remember thinking was that with Kevin's verse being the dirtiest and most suggestive (Jakob and Axel's are innocent, Kevin is the freak here), of course they also have to start doing the thrusts immediately after his verse. And of course he has to moan about it, scrunch his brows a bit, push the tip of his tongue against the inside of his lower lip, ready to peek out a little.

Who even are they and why do they exist?? This is insane behaviour. I love that song so much.

OH and Kevin mimicked Axel's hand movement!!! It was soooo cute aahhh <3

Ehehehe there was someone in the crowd whose voice reached over the cheering very well, and I could hear them shouting, "Hyvä Kevin!" which means that the person was cheering on Kevin, but I think that word in finnish has more praise in it than the english translation, "good, Kevin!" would have. (KEVIN'S PRAISE KINK FROM THEIR JULKALENDER REFERENCE????? BRA KEVIN NBVJFNJDN) The person shouted this about three times :) Kevin was audibly praised three times! :) It was so nice to hear from other people who love him as well. <3 I loved it. <3

Oh one part that Kevin sings in Heimani I Skick, where they have come up with new lyrics for the city they are performing at got me thinking how creative they always are for that. It's a fun addition to the song, especially for the byaoriginals! After Kevin had sung his part, Jakob looked at him and gave him his hands up, with his fingers crossed. He was smiling a lot, and that's it, no other explanation for it. Gotta love their secret language on stage, whatever it was :)

It was some song (Heimani I Skick?) from the beginning when they were playing their instruments when this happened. For the song to start, Jakob guided us to clap along to a beat. Kevin started playing his guitar, and the sound came through for a few seconds, but suddenly it all went out, and the sound was lost somewhere. Kevin kept playing his guitar, perhaps hoping that it would be fixed, and in the mean time Jakob told us to keep clapping. I love that he took the crowds attention for a while to let Kevin work it out for a while. After Kevin had checked some kind of guitar sound thingy on his strap, they started again, and this time everything worked perfectly. It somehow felt extra great to hear the sound coming loud from the speakers, and Kevin immediately started to play it with confidence. It was a strong start again, and the technical issue was forgotten immediately!

Again, when Kevin was playing his guitar, it was such a joy to watch it when he looked at the crowd in front of him on his side and saw us jumping and dancing and singing, he started smiling wider and playing with a renewed fire when he saw us. He was enjoying so much. It was just a joy to see him feeling like that. Oh a happy Kevin. <3 And when he sings and dances and looks at us, it's like he guides us with the show, he knows how much their work means to us and how happy it makes us. He can see the effect they all have on us, and every time one of them smiles while looking at the crowd, I just feel like we are also doing something right with supporting them and showing them our love. It's all unbelievable, how much love there is shared between them and us and also amongst us fans, you as well who cannot make it to their gigs.

The beginning of Gelateria is still the most insane part of this song. How can something like that even exist? And Kevin's part…………………. The way it starts with his mmmmhhjahar ett ställ ja ha bonga, I could listen to that for ages, it's perfect, Kevin's pitch is perfect, Kevin is absolutely perfect. Damn. yES. It's kind of a tone that shows playful flirting, with Kevin wanting to be a little bit more loose without losing his confidence or sexiness.

Kevin's moves…… The move Kevin did in Gelateria promo video, swaying his hips from side to side while keeping his hands flat on his sides… that has come to the performance… uhm. Literally every time they were about to go to the chorus and I looked in Kevin's direction, he was doing this goddamn dance… Add Gelateria to the cunty songs list next to Karar i arbeit, Dansgolv and TEXT-TV (and now apparently Firmans man as well…….)

Oh… this also reminded me of how Kevin moved in general. (uhh. is this me just talking about Kevin? Ahhah, yes.) It very much looked like he was just a little bit shy from all those things he had done last year. There were a lot of tiny hip sways that didn't quite reach the Dansgolv level. Maybe he's taking it more slower this year (he's saving them for KAJhem… or. maybe he's actually taking it a bit slower, if he doesn't feel like doing it again or something…).

Aaahjhdjdvnvnjd can't remember what song it was bUT KEVIN WENT TO DANCE TO THE HIGHEST BENCH!!!! Where Jakob and Axel have been dancing, and now it was Kevin's turn!! <3

Jakob had some new air to him. He did his dances with new rhythms, exaggerating them and also coming up with new ways to dance. There was a moment– I have no idea if I should write this out, it sounds ridiculous, but in person it looked …good. During TEXT-TV, he does his dance with flicking his ass and hips from side to side. Here he decided to emphasize that… in time with the beat… during a song about tv… It looked like he had fun! and we got to look…

He did something with his shoe too? It had slipped off of him, or he took it off? But he danced with the shoe in his hand! Did something with it, just being a normal, silly Jakob.

Kevin during Pa to ta na kako……. I LOVE HIMMΜ it looked like he was having so much fun singing the chorus, he was jumping and dancing, and he lowered himself a little bit and moved his feet on the ground, like they'd slide on the surface. And his hands… Man, he can make his body move like liquid, it's amazing. (He also had the most oiled hips at that venue, it's like they live their own life at that point.)

Speaking of Kevin and his hips (again??), uhh, Firmans man, anyone? He was so horny during it… the way he moved… it was like he was in his own world and he got some kind of satisfaction from doing what he did. Like he felt the song in a different way than before (the Dansgolv in him wants to get out). I'm scared to watch videos of it.

Man, Kevin's singing… Sometimes there are parts when he sings more melodically, which differs from the track or his regular singing, and let me tell you. It's much more than any kind of music could ever be to my ears. It's the softest, purest sound that feels like hope and a bright future, it's like everything is okay when I hear him sing, and at that moment I'm in a place that I can't believe exists. It's something ethereal, and the knowledge that I am able to hear more of it at that exact moment, that I can hear all three of them, see them and feel, it's like a sacred privilege.

Ah, the humour they have during these gigs. <3 The joy they share, the joy they create, people can smile and laugh and feel good. And they love to be the cause to that. Sometimes they also look surprised by how much they and their work are loved. And the intensity of it…

It has recently come into my conscious mind, that people who haven't been at their gigs don't necessarily know how much happens there with the speaks, the songs and the details from the crowd or the venues or the set list or the choreography, so I hope that I am not telling all of this like it would be obvious. If you have read these experience posts, you might have got an image of what it would be like, but it's still different to experience all of that in person, because the full show experienced in whole is something that I don't think cannot be experienced anywhere else.

There was something in the air, the crowd was… crazy? There was a lot of cheering, and this time, while in my experiences most of the longest and loudest cheers have stayed in the first applauds they get after Kom ti byin with extended and increasing screams (since we don't have time to properly appreciate them before it, as they start the song immediately after coming onto stage), but this time, after some songs in the middle of the gig we gave them applauds which grew in duration. There was a moment when the initial screams had calmed down, but here and there people were continuing, and from there the audience, prompted by the few screams, got noisy again with one by one joining in to reach the levels that had been right after the song. Not sure if this next thing happened during this part, but at some point Jakob joined the cheering with his own scream, it was cute!

Most of this was a bit of a haze to me (I was focusing on screaming, therefore couldn't pay attention haha), but I also kind of got this confirmed by another source.

Saying it again, there definitely was something in the air. And I think what it was, was more appreciation, more love towards them after their pause in gigs this year. We fans know that they are something exceptionally unbelievable to be actually true and exist, and when that gets taken away for a moment, but then we get it back, we show how much we had missed it, right? They are getting more and more love, and if I look at the small journey (compared to their 16-year career) from last year all the way to here, their gigs have changed quite a lot. From their first sauna tour gigs when they stuck to the choreography and followed what was already planned, to this where they can improvise with dancing and stage shenanigans and their singing, where they can move more relaxed and really find the joy for performing, between these there is a lot of work, experiences, creativity and especially friendship. And it really shows. I'd give anything so that I could see all of it again. So, I understand people who are living for KAJ, myself included. Moving to new places, going to new countries, breaking language barriers, and staying creative. Keeping the KAJ fandom alive with friends and meeting new ones, because life is simply much more brighter with these tre pojkar in it.

Thank you so much if you read it all the way to here. <3 My tenth KAJ gig was, well, I don't think I can put this into few words anymore. So I hope that you felt it through this text. :) It was so nice to see some familiar people again, it really left a warm feeling in my heart, and I can't wait to see you again. <3

And now to the post-gig depression. :') The only way to deal with it is to consume some KAJ, like I every day do. :)

Disconnect - are you disconnected with any particular aspect of your identity?

Uhhh yes for literally all of it honestly!!

Being from a small town in the Midwest, it's been.. challenging, to find other people like me. Queer people that are also hiding who they are from their parents are plentiful in this godforsaken state (though I've only met one or two other transgender people irl), but the alterhuman scene is basically nonexistent. There is so much that I would still not know about if I didn't have access to the internet.

I've never felt connected to a group before, and I've only felt sparse connection on an individual level. The mogai community is the only community I've ever really fit into because generally, people are pretty accepting of my autistic traits and have been very patient with me.

For the bulk of my early life I have lacked a sense of self, and a sense of community. Retrospectively, I was a very lonely child and it was almost entirely on me to figure out how to interact with others. My autism was ignored by my parents out of convenience; because to acknowledge the problem would be to acknowledge a fault with me. I grew up believing there was something fundamentally wrong with me, something that could not be fixed. Something that made me unlovable and difficult. My youth was a very difficult time because of this. The dehumanization I experienced as a child affects my alterhumanity -- autistic people are people, and deserve respect. But I was not always treated as a human-- so I forsake that title.

OKAY AND NOW ONTO THE GIG NVJDVNJVNCK

Aaaahah where do I even start?? Okay, for this one I have been more excited than for the previous gig, and I had already forgotten how much fun it is to expect to see them! I had been listening to KAJ songs lately a lot, and just thinking that I could hear those again, ah it felt amazing. I started getting nervous when the gig came closer and closer. I got to the place, and even though there were already a lot of people, the crowd was so spacious that I could walk past people and onto the front row. My legs guided me to Kevin's side… it was the best spot. <3 I saw everything! And the platform was also a lot taller, so it was easy to see to the stage.

I kept glancing at my watch and groaned when my last glance had happened a minute ago. The time went too slowly. When there was only five minutes left, I really started to feel nervous and also excited. It was a feeling I had missed so much. <3 It felt unbelievable that I was seeing them again. My fixation on them has only grown lately, and I knew I'd this time have fun here.

Mnbnvjnfjvnfjb Kevin's intro……… That's always what gets me, but this new one, Kevin (I cannot for the life of me translate or understand that at all) kept telling us things (very well said), and he kept going and going, growing the anticipation more and more, and when you think that the atmosphere cannot grow anymore, it does grow, with Kevin's voice changing with emotion into more energy and hype, and as I was smiling from ear to ear, legs trembling and butterflies in my stomach, they appeared onto stage, and I screamed and screamed and clapped and tried to stay sane. It was like a dog having a bone, they don't hear, see or feel anything else than the bone.

Kom Ti Byin

Aaaahh and they immediately started with Kom Ti Byin! It was good, won't go much into it, but I will seriously ask, what is it with that song? I mean, in my previous experience post I said that during it Jakob was SO CLOSE to Kevin all the time, clinging onto him and also Axel. He wasn't as clingy here, but he was closer to Kevin's face this time… It's not enough that I say "he was so close". No, barely centimeters between their faces while Jakob gazes into his eyes when Kevin sings his part from the end. That amazes me more than anything. How he can be close to him like that, and how a real intimate appreciation and love is so visible between them during those moments.

oKAY OKAY WAIT!!! After Kom Ti Byin, we started cheering. HELL YEAH. From my previous experience I remember how we kept going and going, screaming louder. We did that here too, and Jakob smiled wide and chuckled. Then with his hands he gestured us to calm down, and we did. UNTIL HE SUDDENLY SHOUTED "MEIR MEIR" AND LIFTED HIS HANDS AND WE BROOOKE INTO HOLLER THAT WAS THE LOUDEST NOISE HE GOT FROM US THAT NIGHT AND HE CACKLED IN AMAZEMENT FHGGJNJDVBNJCVNC

I swear he could make the crowd do anything.

EXCEPT THIS ONE THING FJFHJDNJVNKDJDCM

At some point in the beginning, Jakob took his time to reveal that Axel had become a father! To be honest, all what he said at that point went past me. :') He turned to Kevin and told that he had become a father too! The crowd cheered, Jakob said something (??), but one thing that I understood was that he wanted us to say something. He was going to say a phrase and we'd repeat it to Axel and Kevin. I had no idea what it would be, so I listened as Jakob got us silent and ready, and then he said it.

"Hello daddy."

THe crowd laughed, some a bit more awkwardly, but the one who laughed the loudest was Jakob himself oh my god, I saw Axel turning to Jakob in surprise, and I don't really think they have talked about this before, maybe it was spontaneous from him?? Jakob dear has had too much time on his hands to think about these while being without supervision of Axel and Kevin…… I love that the crowd was respectful and didn't say that, I myself was too stunned to even speak.

Jakob had the best laughs, aahhh that little freak, I love him. He had so much fun during the gig too! He was smiling a lot and playing and enjoying himself, and more importantly, absolutely enjoying to do it with Kevin and Axel.

Karar i arbeit

Kevin was amazing during Kia once again. <3 But what made my pupils widen more for him was his long note babyyyy. I remember the first time he ever did that, on 19.9.2025 at Viking Grace. After I had heard that, I was like, "WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT HELLO?? THAT WAS SO GOOD HOLY SHIT". From there on I've had the pleasure to hear that again <3 But what was different from this time, was that it was even longer……. he went longer… past the point where I was enjoying it and suddenly realized that wait he's still going!! What I'm salty about at myself is that I had stopped recording right before that part because I thought that he'd go to the other side and do his regular moan note. But that one ahaahhh <3

Vems pojk e do?

(I'm not sure if it was Vems pojk e do or if it was some other song) Once again a moment where Jakob stares. Kevin did the introduction for Vems pojk e do?, and Jakob was naturally listening him and looking into his direction at the same time. But Kevin had finished his speak, the song started and Jakob kept staring… at Kevin… for a long while… seconds nearing for ten, fifteen, and he had that same message on his face again. He was so proud. It also looked like he was glad to have Kevin there with him, that he gets to work with him, write funny songs, laugh and be a friend to him. It doesn't look like friendship, it doesn't look like romantic love, it's something that exceeds those. It's something that's rare, and it looks like he is every day grateful that he has found it and gets to keep it.

I noticed Jakob doing this more with Kevin, but there are and could be moments between him and Axel that I haven't noticed. One I did notice was how they gave high fives to each other mid song, and now after the gig, it gives such a warm feeling. They do that as a team, they support and praise each other, and their chemistry just clicks into place like a three pieced puzzle.

Dågär åt böndrin

This song has always been so fun, especially because of Jakob's dance moves! He dances with his hands and brings them up and down and sways them from side to side and lifts his legs in time of the beat. He looks so happy while doing the dance. <3 And here he exaggerated his moves! He put 150% effort into the dance, until it became comically silly, and he also did that with his voice. It was amazing to see and hear that, the joy from him came to us so well.

Hupparipäivä

Ahhhh I love it when they do Hupparipäivä!!! It's such a high energy song. Kevin introduced it as a song that was fully in finnish, at least close to it. I love that they have the courage to speak finnish even if they don't know it that well. They even made a song about it, and once again shows that they can turn their weaknesses into strengths (more of this from Axel later :D)! That is such a great talent to have.

Kevin was amazing. He was so enthusiastic about the lyrics, because he knows that what they sing about is very much true. That in life, dancing and moving your body does good to you. That's what kind of message I have had of it! At the end of the song, during his chorus, Kevin sung "tanssimaan" with so much rough and raw emotion, almost like growling it, and it made me think, "oh damn he's serious……".

Jakob was this time the one who said, "Rakkaus ja liikunta!" which means "love and movement". I love that message. They want to tell us about the goods in life.

Gelateria!!!!!!!!!

Gelateria WJAT THW FUCK SKDKLXNDNSB

That song was exactly how they look in the promo videos.

I was so excited to hear this, because I have liked this song more and more and when I first heard it, I was like... what the fuck... and decided to listen to it on repeat for the next few days. Still do, it's addicting.

With their speak before a song they hinted at it with the word glass, but I wasn't too sure if it would come. My excitement was growing second by second, that kind of excitement where your anticipation is high and you are expecting a lot, and you just know that they will be filled and you will be satisfied after. It is very mildly said when I say that I was looking forward to getting to experience that song live.

They confirmed the song by saying its name, and I had barely a few seconds to prepare to hear it for the first time live.

Hey, listen. Can you believe my words that I will write next? I don't think that I can even tell this in a way that would do this performance justice.

If you thought they were cunty before …I think they reached a new level. They were serious about this.

The first notes started, the rising accordion, and immediately I had that feeling of, "oh no... why is this so good... what is happening??" And the accordion part ended, came the hard, rhythmic notes, my mouth fell open, and the speakers playing it loudly only added to the feeling of, "how is this possible? What is this??" How I can describe this feeling I had then, is with one word. Desperation. It was in the border of actual sanity. My legs were trembling from adrenaline, I think my jaw was on the floor, eyes wide I tried to understand what was happening. I couldn't stop it, and it all came so fast.

And then they started the dance in the first little sneak peak of the chorus. My brain was frozen. I could just stare.

To be completely honest, I remember nothing else from that song, it was all just a haze. I just know that the song is 100% more addicting heard live than what it is played from the track.

They were on another level with the cuntyness. They knew they were sexy, and they knew that the song only enhanced that. They were not playing or performing or pretending, they were that.

Kevin's voice was that sweet, distorted in pitch, and it was an absolute joy to hear him sing like that, different from his normal voice. It's also a different from what I have heard generally speaki g, as is Kevin's normal talking voice, a bit nasally(?), the opposite of deep, but not really the highest like women do, so I love that he sings with that voice more now! I have heard that in Vems pojk e do, and maybe some other songs that I cannot remember right now. It's the opposite to BBB, where his voice, in my opinion, has the true finnish growl to it.

Axel's part was also good, but what happens with his voice often is, that when it's so low, it doesn't really come through that well, as it mixes with the other lower notes from the instruments. It could also be that the microphone doesn't really pick on those low frequencies. His voice still could be heard, but it was more silent than Jakob and Kevin's (or maybe it's just me who can't hear it haha). But we knew what he was singing about, and it was amazing to see him sing all that live!

Overall, this song has left me a feeling of, what the hell happened? How can something like that exist…?

I had such a strong reaction to this song at that gig, and I don't know if I'm actually gone insane for them, or was the experience really like that for others. I did not experience this during Mosquito, Economy PLUS and not even Karaoke. Karaoke is still one of my favourites they play live, and the first gig experience of that song felt insane, but this… this is on a whole new level that did not exist before. What the hell was that??? Let me go back?? I'm still shocked. WOW. Holy shit. Let me see videos.

Actually one thing that I remember from this song was that it was not jumpable (to me, Jakob did it well…). I didn't have the time to find that rhythm for it that has been in other songs (not all but most after BBB).

Taco Hej

Aaahhhdjfmnv I've seen that one Kevkob video of Jakob singing "E do heitari än taco mix" to Kevin and the latter raising his eyebrows and being a bit flirty. Here at that part, Axel had come to Kevin's side and started playing with him. If I remember correctly, Kevin raised his eyebrows at him and Axel grinned a little, you know, just them being gay on stage together. But what I loved is, when they had done this, a few fans in the front row who saw this laughed out loud right as Axel was leaving. I noticed Kevin hearing their laughs, and he turned to look at them and smiled so much, breaking character. He saw what effect he had on them with Axel, he knew they had enjoyed to see that, and the smile on Kevin's lips looked genuine, like he was glad that he had succeeded. He also might have been a bit adorably embarrassed about it, maybe to know that people like them acting like that a lot. It was so cute to see. <3

Some details from during the gig <3

- One thing that happened during one song was something so sudden, but something that did not go unseen from others. Axel threw his mic across the stage… By throwing, I mean that it had slipped from his hands, and I could just see how it bounced on the floor and Axel ran after it with eyes wide and mouth in a grimace. But guess who saw that and laughed his ass off? Yeah that was Jakob. It was his line soon in the song, and he couldn't hold his laughter from his voice. He chuckled the words out! Further into the gig I saw Jakob teaching Axel that he should hold the microphone with his two hands, to grip it real good so that it won't fly away again. :D

After the song Axel apologized to the tech that he had thrown it! Jakob had gone to prepare for Näsan Domnar (I think) and that's when Axel decided to start discussing what had happened with Kevin. (don't let me start telling how relatable Kevin's responses were help gfjddvjnvjnfd) Axel took it amazingly. He wasn't trying to hide it, but instead faced the situation and used it to turn it into his strength by joking about it. I think that tells very well how Axel would be dealing with inconveniences.

- This next one is a bit more negative/uneasy, so feel free to skip! I think it was Karaoke, where suddenly a random man appeared behind them when they went into the chorus. They didn't notice him for a long time, and the man just stood there. He looked harmless, a bit confused, but I was scared for them… No security came to get him, but he did not belong to the show… It was in the end of the chorus when Jakob turned around and noticed him. He looked confused, furrowing his brows and looking at the audience as if we knew how the man had got there or who he was. Luckily, quickly after that the man was taken off the stage, and nothing bad happened. That was such a scary situation though. They didn't know he was back there, but we all in the audience could see the person and no one could do anything.

- Fnndjndnvnvj at the end side of the gig, there was a pause when they all were standing on the stage and Jakob was talking about something, doing one of his speaks between the songs, and then he turned to Kevin and (probably) said something(?) in the tune of, "what are you doing here?" That's when Kevin had remembered something and left to jog out of the stage. From the side I saw that he went to wear the fabbo vest on himself… It looked so cute that he was just happily smiling while enjoying the view of the crowd and listening to Jakob, that he had forgotten and wasn't even thinking of going out. <3 Jakob and Axel joked about it too! (I still have no idea what they said…….. maybe something that Kevin was still on holiday)

- Kevin seemed to enjoy sooooo much. <3 During the solos when he played his guitar, it sometimes looked like he remembered to enjoy the melody and he then burst into a smile and swayed his head from side to side, jamming with the music. <3

- They were so goofy on stage!! It was amazing to see. They had much more energy, and it looked like they had rediscovered the joy of performing. Jakob played with his voice, Kevin enjoyed so much to see us singing and smiling, and Axel was so happy to dance and play his bass! In the beginning, I saw when Axel was playing his bass and he started jumping!! But it wasn't a regular jump, he pulled his legs all the way up, and it looked hilarious! He smiled so wide, it was so funny! Later Jakob had done the same, and he exaggerated his jumps, just like Axel had done, and it was so funny and added a lot more to the experience and atmosphere there!

- I love that there was this one swedish couple behind me, who, I suppose, were seeing KAJ for the first time. They laughed a lot (there's one moment on video I took of Text tv, that moment… ahah… yeah I agree… and they laughed during Daisy and väktaren's parts!) and it seemed like they enjoyed the gig a lot! It reminded me that KAJ really is a humorgruppen with hilarious stories and characters and how well they can act all that on stage. It felt great to see another experience from a different view, and not from my own view where I'm so deep under the fog just manically clinging onto anything KAJ does…

- During TEXT TV there was an amazing TV head in the crowd! Someone had taken an old, red TV and converted it into a wearable hat like Jakob has! The person seemed so happy about it! And after the song Jakob mentioned him and said that it was a great TV head. I loved that it was an older gentleman. Once again shows how KAJ is for everyone.

- They did a longer show than before… Not much. They have often done around an hour, but here, when I looked at my watch, there was ten minutes left until it'd be an hour. At that point there wasn't Pa to ta na kako, Karaoke, Yolo, or Bara bada bastu. I was so sure that they'd do only Yolo and after that BBB. Pa to ta na kako was what I really hoped I'd hear. But as I was just thinking about that, the first song came, and I was so surprised and soooo excited that it was Pa to ta na kako after all!! Some part of my brain that wasn't screaming, wondered if they would have the time to do Yolo and BBB, but that thought fell silent very quickly. I can't really remember the order of these, but as expected, Kevin went to wear his fabbo vest, and I knew it'd be over soon. :( I still enjoyed the song, and next I expected Bara bada bastu. But they didn't go!? They started Karaoke after!! Aaahhahh that was!!! It was the best surprise! Somewhere along those minutes, what also surprised me a lot was when they suddenly started Firmans man. I can't remember them doing it that late into the gig. The structure was weird (in a good way), as Yolo has been the second to last song, too. But I didn't mind it at all! The gig ended up being about 1h and 10 minutes (which is very important considering how many song you can fit into that 10 minutes).

- In the absolute end, after BBB, they said their goodbyes and left the stage… Somewhere on my right side there was a chant of, "ein gang till!" and I joined it! But I was sceptical, as they haven't, at least at the gigs where I've been, come a second time out. But here they did!!!! AAHHH it was a surprise!!! They came to take their praise again. <33 I love them aaahhh <3

I could not stop smiling at all. In the beginning, I randomly giggled from time to time because I was just so happy, and this is what has happened during other gigs too, but this time the joy came back to me with full force. I remembered again why life is worth living, it's to see stuff like this, to laugh and dance and have fun with great people, with friends and have a break from it all for a while. To be honest, I can't remember when I have last been this happy. KAJ's gigs are and will always be the best ones I've ever been at, no other artist or band comes even close to that. It all just needs to be experienced in person, because it's crazy to be in the audience, with all the lights, the loud music, the atmosphere from the fans, ALL OF IT. Fuck I'm so happy. I want to go back there.