#ew!thinking

Can we stop that ?

Yes I'm a boy I do skincare, yes I read fanfictions, yes I love Pinterest, yes I have celebrity crushes, yes I love reading books, yes I love plushies, yes I love soft colors as much as darker

That doesn't mean I am a fucking girl.

A boy can have periods. A boy can take care of himself. A boy can fit in every stupid girly clichés and still be a boy.

You can't understand how fucking dysphoric it is to relate with contents that are only made for girls.

After the Bulletin attack, he tried to take his life back, he realises what he just did. He reached for Julie, he explains why she is important for him (one thing that personally surprised me in a very good way, I love this dialogue), and he honestly did a pretty good job I mean without Julie's murder I think he could have restore a bit of control.

And yes I get the "he was already a psycho before Fisk" I get it, but still we see that he tried, really tried, to keep it together, but he's too instable and easily manipulated.

Sedated, we're nursing on a poison that never stung Our teeth and lungs are lined with the scum of it Somewhere for this, death and guns We are deaf, we are numb Free and young and we can feel none of it Darlin', don't you, stand there watching, won't you Come and save me from it? Darlin', don't you, join in, you're supposed to Drag me away from it —Sedated

Honey, you're familiar Like my mirror years ago Idealism sits in prison Chivalry fell on his sword Innocence died screaming Honey, ask me, I should know I slithered here from Eden Just to sit outside your door Babe There's something wretched about this Something so precious about this Where to begin Babe There's something broken about this But I might be hoping about this Oh, what a sin —From Eden

I love the concept of asexual Dex, but I might add a little twist in it, from personal opinion ofc.

I think that Dex has sexual encounters but as his other relationships and basic social interactions, it is not healthy. For him sex is overwhelming—too intense, too much. His need for order and clean environment is freaking out during sex, there is so much fluids, textures, smells, sensations...

But I do think that he still has some. For me, he can have two type of sexual activities: one very primal, and one impulsive. But either are chaotic.

The "primal" one is basically where I put his possible past sexual experiences. I think that he only had hookups, with different person every time, to avoid awkwardness and real social interactions as much as possible. So maybe he'll flirt with a cute waiter and then fuck with them, because it feels hot and sexy in the moment, but that's it, absolutely no romantism in this.

Then the second is impulsive. This one has a tone of emotion in it, but as always it is not healthy. For example, if you do believe in Dexmatt, I think that in this dynamic Dex could actually feel a sexual attraction to Matthew. Not because he's in love with him, but because he is obsessed with him. (Not in yandere kinky way, I'm talking about psychology here). Matthew and Dex have a special connexion through death and violence. Why I called this "category" impulsive is because I think Dex would be very passive through this process. His emotions are taking the lead, against his will.

While the "primal" can be associated with Fbi!Dex, I think the "impulsive" is 100% DDBA!Dex.

Another headcanon I'd love about Dex in sexuality, is that I think he'd be very very awkward after sex. He would need space, a deep shower, a protocol to follow. He would be sweaty, maybe even having a panic attack in some cases. Because again, it is not healthy. For the person he does it with, but also for him. Even if he might enjoyed it, it's in a certain way not very consented for him, it's a form of traumatic respond.

But !!! I do also think that he could have healthy sexual activities, but under very specific conditions he'll need to understand firstly himself—thing he struggles to do.

I think it's for all of these reasons that submissive!Dex makes A LOT of sense. He needs control over his own mind, he needs someone to guide him through it. And in contrast, dom!Dex is also a reality but during unhealthy sex (one shot, quicky, dub-con etc.) I'm not saying these kinks are unhealthy!! Just in Dex's world and life, they unfortunately are, unless it's with someone that really concider him and help him understand that sex is not supposed to be forced, or uncomfortable.