Today i had a philosophy exam and it’s always exhausting because i’m great in theory but i’m completely awful when it comes to write down my thought process. i have all this sweet sweet arguments in my head and when i write down it’s always devastatingly not enough. 

it’s also hard for me because this teacher really likes me and i really like him (very master and student thing, very professional and all) and he knows that i know stuff because we talk a lot in class about the subjects, so he knows all my difficults and he knows about my depression and stuff. But he still waits a lot from me because i am his pupil, i am the one who enjoys the most the classes, who reads the assigned textbooks. He waits a lot from me and everytime i’m the first one to deliver the test and he corrects in front of me and i am never enough and it’s exhausting. it reminds me that i’m always disappointing people, even tho he does not ask me anymore than he ask any other student. it’s just that i really like this subject and i really enjoy his classes and i have daddy issues and i just want to be enough, so here i am, ranting about it under the only aesthetically pleasing picture i could take today as a way to luring people into reading my rants.