“why are you trying so hard to get rid of me ? id never do this to you.”
that line hit me HARD.
i’ve said something very similar to myself so many times. and it hurts so bad, especially when i’m just trying to help. i’ll try and talk to my friends, bond more with them, but all they say is that i’m weird and i’m annoying.
now, i’m not saying that’s ALL they think about me. i know they love me and usually enjoy talking to me, but what i really want is someone i can be myself with. i don’t want to have to mask around them, because honestly that is way too much work, and i already do it every school day.
but when my friends, my best friends, the people i trust and love the most just brush off my attempts at conversation ? that hurts. it’s like they’re trying to get rid of me sometimes, and it sucks. because i try so, so hard. and trying isn’t always enough.
