My whole life, Iāve felt this strong powerful force pulling my arm
This sense of urgency to give something humanity never gave me
The thing was, Iāve never wanted to receive anything, I just wanted people to allow me to give them my love
I wanted to cause a change
Maybe Iāve done things wrong
Maybe Iāve said things that shouldnāt even have been thought
Maybe all the maybeās add up, and destroy how much Iāve preached love
The thing is..Iām not perfect, I have flaws
Things take time, things take love
I believe the world expected me to be āperfectā, because they perceived me that way
How? Why would they would think Iām āperfectā when they all hate me?
Well..they think Iām āperfectā at first, because of the things I say or do, they like me for a certain amount of time
They see Iām really not perfect at all, Iām just simply..kind
It doesnāt mean Iāve reached āperfectionā or āsuperiorityā thatās just stupid, Iām just another human
I hate that people feel so insecure, they shouldnāt, I hate that they compare themselves to me
Or that they think Iām always trying to be ātoo perfectā
I donāt try to be anything, I show what I am, and they donāt realize, they also have that potential
They are so mesmerizing, I love humanity
I just hate how they donāt allow themselves to be seen for whatās real
I also try to be my ābest versionā, but that doesnāt mean Iāll always be kind, it doesnāt mean I donāt fall apart
Iāve broken, because I didnāt love myself
I didnāt love what I saw in the mirror
I thought I was my vessel
I thought I was just a body
I was given the most rare heart, Iām one of a kind, but thatās also my curse..in someway divine
Even the people who misunderstand me now, have said it before
The thing is..everyone recognizes my beauty
People seek for things to be a certain way forever though
āYouāll never find the same person twice, not even the same personā
People change, people either grow or donāt
Life is about evolving, changing
I actually used to be so terrified of it
I hated how things fall apart at the worst times
How things donāt stay the same
I loved people though, I loved seeing them grow
That made me realize, life was also just as beautiful as humanity
Life was a gift given to us after all
Sometimes things fall apart, because they had to
The lesson had to be made
Sometimes things fall apart, but that doesnāt make them less beautiful
Sometimes things change, but a change doesnāt mean theyāre not the same, it means they evolutionized
Maybe it can sometimes be seen as āpurgatoryā
I believe we see it that way, because we donāt like acknowledging things
But hurting proves weāre real
Hurting, crying, screaming shows how much we really feel
Of course we need to learn to moderate these emotions, sometimes they can break things
Iāll always be learning, just like everyone else
Humanity is beautiful, itās gorgeous
It has me mesmerized, Iāll never get tired of it
Humanity also has shattered itself, please let yourselves shine
Youāre so much more than your bodies, all your vessels are so gorgeous, but your hearts, your hearts were once pure
Please give your inner child a chance
I promise things will be alright
I wonāt ever give up on you guys
I wonāt leave you to die
Iām going to give what everyone was to afraid or lazy to provide
Iām āTokyo3smĆ«eā, but you guys are in my hearts, call me āEsā
Iām your blue princess, who adores you without needing you to give me reasons
You are such a preciously divine creation