#evansandblack

Yo, about the screaming in dreams thing. Usually, if you try to scream in a dream, your body does try to scream but most times you can't. It's like a sleep paralysis thing. Your body freezes up to prevent you from moving too much, that way if you're running in a dream, you don't start trying to run in your bed. You can start screaming as your body starts to wake up but not if you're completely out. Also, whenever you try and fail to scream in your sleep, it causes feelings of anxiety.

I gave myself some time to relax and gather my thoughts after 16. I'm not crying now so that's cool. The chapter was phenomenal, as always. But I'm so mad. I'm mad at the reader because why did she gotta go and do that? I'm mad at Tom for sleeping with that random girl but I know he's going through shit. I just want them to be happy together and I wanna know more about their pasts and I'm just feeling a lot of things.

You're such a fantastic writer, Kaylee. Oh my god. Like, wow. But also fuck you. I'm offended. I am hurt. I am a damn MESS.

I don't know why you gotta hurt me with every chapter of Forever but it's fine. I'm totally fine. Who really wants to be happy anyway, right? It's chill.

I remember there was this span of like 2 chapters where Forever didn't hurt me that badly but now we're back to suffering all the time and tbh, I feel bad for the friend that I cry about it to because she has no idea what's going on. It's just me screaming. The chapter was wonderful as always, though. No matter how much of your work I read, I'm always blown away by your writing. You're so talented, it's unbelievable.

I didn't cry during 18 so that's a first! But the chapter was beautiful as always, Kaylee. I'm always blown away by how eloquent you are how you obviously but so much thought into your writing.

Okay so normally I'm too shy to do this but I wanted to introduce myself. Hi, I'm Annie. I was the one who sent the NSFW Tom thing that you reblogged and I got v emotional about it. I'm a writer as well and I honestly love all of your work so I kind of had a moment when I saw that you enjoyed a little thing that I wrote.

I was discussing a Tom/Haz threesome with my friend last night and that anon just reminded me of it and I don't need this. It's 6am, I have not been to bed, I'm not prepared to deal with these kind of emotions. I'm barely even a living person right now.