I frown most of the time. I lean in my armchair and pretend to sleep. I never said “hi” to my teachers. I complain a lot about the drivers. I get mad when I arrived home and no food being served. I bash the jerks in my mind whenever I saw them on the campus. I worry a lot about the worst things that I’m expecting to happen. I only have like 3-5 circle of friends. I never studied so hard. I roll my eyes almost every time. I missed Sunday services. I always have fights with my siblings. I hate my dad so much. I tell mom ” I love you” every day.
My life isn’t perfect. I’ feel sad most of the time. I cry at night for no reason. I easily get hurt and offended but I’m good at pretending that I’m okay. I don’t want to be taken advantage and I can actually discern fake people. I’m always tough because in that way, nobody can hurt me, nobody can use me. I hate to be manipulated what to do, especially when I know what really the right thing to do. I hate asking favor because I think I’m a burden to people. So I always work for the things I want to have. When I failed, I get discouraged. No room for a second try for me. If I win, good. If I fail, then it’s not for me.
My ultimate goal in life is to be at peace with myself. Away from drama and toxic people. No hates, just love. No trashes. Just the important things and people that matter in my life.
I want to travel the world soon so that’s what I”m working right now. Sometimes I don’t feel like going to school because of the annoying people I meet in the hallway. But I just always remember that I have 1000 unfulfilled bucket lists. If I will stop going to school, then there’s no way I can fulfill it.
