youre gonna have a real fuckin shock when i tell you i heat up water in the microwave for ramen too

– BASICS.

•  NAME: Grey •  PRONOUNS: he / him manly femme •  SEXUALITY: gaaaaay •  TAKEN OR SINGLE: the singlest single pringle at the bottom of the pringle can

– THREE FACTS.

1. I wrote and published a book and am currently working on its sequel! 2. I used to play basketball in middle school; I hang my hat on that as the straightest thing I’ve ever done 3. I do theatre from time to time and love it.

– EXPERIENCE.

•   HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?): 4 years on forums, 5 years on tumblr! •   PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED:  message boards, aim chat, tumblr, twitter (once briefly) •   BEST EXPERIENCE: I started out in the Grey’s Anatomy fandom but my best experience has been with the Glee fandom. It was really unintentional how I got into it, but I found my tribe through there, and met some amazing people. Learned a lot, grew a lot.

– MUSE PREFERENCES.

•   FEMALE OR MALE: Males. I always worry that my portrayal of a female character is inauthentic or not true to who they are. I played Alice Pieszecki of the L Word though, and I loved her to friggin death. I’d love to play Alex Udinov from Nikita sometime, but I don’t think the fandom is alive. •   FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT: Angst and smut, tbh. Fluff is the salve to the angst I inflict on myself. I want alllll the things. •   PLOTS OR MEMES:  Memes are great because they can go anywhere, but threads are more sustainable to me if I’ve plotted them out. That doesn’t mean there’s no room for surprises, but, I like to have a general idea of what each of us expects out of a thread. Memes that turn into plots are also grand. •   LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: I write lengthy novely replies. It can mean really slower drafts, but when I’m feeling my muse at that particular point, there’s no stopping it. I have to write it all out the way it’s being felt and perceived through my character. Though, to be honest, I wish I had more short replies because I see rpers going back and forth together and I think it helps keep muse for the stuff you have going on. My threads take ages. I think I’ve only ever completed a handful in my time on Sam. •   BEST TIME TO WRITE: Night! •   ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S):  Absolutely. I take on other people’s pain sometimes. I used to be a lot worse at this where I’d sacrifice a lot of things to the detriment of myself because it helped the other person with what they were going through. I learned to set boundaries to that and stop it because otherwise I was going to run myself emotionally and spiritually ragged and raw. But yeah. Sam is my on screen spirit animal. He has a special place in my heart; and I connect with him for a reason.

This was the first hunt that he completed on his own without his father there to act as training wheels. He was still shaking from the adrenaline when he drove to the motel they’d left Sammy at. Blood drying over his knuckles, his face. Lower lip cut and swollen. Pretty sure he’s got a cracked rib or two from being thrown against a wall. He thought he was going to die. Really, he did. Now all he can think about is getting home to Sammy. It’s the only thing on his mind. 

Tunnel vision has him parking outside the motel 6 at least an hour and a half before he should have been. It took almost three just to get to the town he’d left. Dean mechanically grabs his duffel bag from the backseat, wincing at the weight, but he carries it to the door and knocks that secret knock. Voice cracked-