#etnc

Generally speaking, number theory.

My PhD research was on the Equivariant Tamagawa Number Conjecture, which predicts special values of L-functions.  There’s a bunch of motivic stuff and K-theory in the background, although I was mostly dealing with ring- and module-theoretic calculations.

How great is my God, that He would allow me to bask in His presence when I needed Him the most?

Prior to conference, my heart was filled with water. I was a fighting off feelings of resentment, I was wrestling with my pride (yet again), and struggling with my anointing as the Area Head of GTA and Household Head of the GTA Area Core. 

I said yes to my service for conference out of obligation. That is the honest truth.

However, regardless of my watered down 'yes' God blessed me anyways! If it wasn't for my 'yes', regardless of how reluctant it was, God  would not have been been able to use it to love me in the ways that I needed to be loved.

He knew that I needed affirmations. He knew I was beginning to run empty. He knew that I just needed to be with people who loved me. He knew that I needed to rest my heart in Him.

He knew my heart was tired.

So what did He do? He gave me all the things I needed and more.

Witnessing my area love and serve the Lord is such a beautiful sight. I was able to see the girls in my household give their all for the Lord. No matter what their personal struggles are/were, I saw the Lord walk with them, and I saw them grow! Seeing the brothers of my core truly LEAD with humility and the quiet strength of confidence in God is so affirming and reassuring. 

Seeing the neon green clad youth, the people of my area, worship the Lord has filled my heart with so much love for them! I am in LOVE with my Area! I don't know what I've really done to deserve these youth, but I pray that I can do right by them while I serve them as an Area Head.

The cherry on top of the cake for me, was the ability to serve as a Eucharistic Minister for the masses on Friday and Saturday.

Early in the year, the desire to physically bring Christ to the Youth was placed in my heart. I wanted to be a young person who delivered Christ to others, and I wanted to do so at conference.

This was a personal desire fulfilled just in time for TNC. I had prayed for this for months. I had asked the Lord for it, but the timing just didn't feel right. However, on the day before conference (Thursday), I was commissioned to become a Eucharistic Minister. 

God's timing is perfect. 

God's plan is perfect. 

Praise the Lord, my God, for He is just too GOOD.