you're gentle, thoughtful in your kindness, and very careful when you're helping others. your warmth is obvious only to some── but to them, it is life-saving. you don't think of your warmth as much. really, it feels like the least you can do. but you are providing something that no one else can. there are people out there that will not be helped by reckless optimism. but you see love as a risk, and when you take it, you will heal others (and yourself) in ways you didn't see as possible. you do not believe that people are good. really, you don't believe that you are good. they can be. you have been. no one is better than you at offering warmth to people who are difficult to love. i am asking you to offer that same warmth to yourself. even when you think you don't deserve it. especially when you think you don't deserve it.

you need rest. more than anything, you must allow yourself rest. death is frightening– it is inevitable, it is unstoppable– but, it can also be a thing of great beauty. it is an agent of change. it is the forest fire that paves way for new life. allow yourself this rest, and be prepared for the change to come. brace yourself. it will be hard, it will not be kind, but you are more than ready. you just need to rest first. / NUMBER: 13 / UPRIGHT: endings, change, transformation, transition / REVERSED: resistance to change, personal transformation, inner purging

oh god. how did it come to this? to some extent, you've gone so far past your own idea of "human" that it must be kind of fun, right? maybe. i'm not sure. as an artifact of cosmic horror, you're wild and wacky and colourful and people are probably drawn to that, but you will never let them know you. the mystery intrigues for a while, but it'll wear everyone down. it'll wear you down, too. who are you? do you remember? are you so far gone that you can't go back? and maybe that's the most tragic thing of all- becoming so distorted in your identity, and for so long, that no matter how hard you want to return you can't ever seem to figure it out. but you've learned a vast amount up in the stars, and people will work hard to get to know you, it doesn't matter who you used to be. sometimes, you should just start from scratch: give yourself a name, a birthday. let someone celebrate these things with you.

you have acquired the latent soul. since you're probably aching to go back to being productive i'll put this in a way that'll make you read it: you are not weak for being soft. you do not need to rely on yourself so much. you can have a day off and rest every now and then. you can fail. you do not have to meet every standard put in place for you. i recognize your hard work. trust yourself. you do not need to walk on your hands and knees to be Something. you can simply just be. learn to let the soft song of your heart sing and see what sings back. you share a soul type with tanaka.

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