#essy update

Because today ya all, I am celebrating getting better! Way better than I have been doing for a very long time, I have started therapy, have gotten outside way more, and so many other things that has just made me happier and healthier in every possible way, and it’s all worth celebrating! So I got some cake yesterday to eat today, not a full cake since sadly they were out so just some cake slices, but its all good anyway! ❤

Heya, so I got a little something to announce to you all! 

A couple of weeks ago I made a life update post, where I mentioned about my trouble drawing and creating alongside some stuff going on in my personal life. Back then I felt like I was slowly but surely working on getting back to it, now I’ve realized that it’s probably not happening. 

At least not in the way I had hoped or thought it would.

Despite my hopes to get back into drawing Undertale, to work on my AUs and ideas, and maybe even finish an old wip or two... I just can’t get back into it. It’s just not happening.

I still love Undertale and the fandom, I still enjoy it, so this isn’t a goodbye in any way. I will still be here, still be posting and been active. I just don’t plan on making Undertale content my focus with my art anymore. I have other fandoms that I will be dipping my little toes in and original works as well, so I’m not going anywhere, I will most likely always be here as long as I possibly can haha!

I got plans to clean up this blog a bit, make it less Undertale centric and more just me centric and whatever thing I am obsessing about. So prepare for some changes here and there, even going to change my pfp with something new real soon.

As for Seaswap - I’m planning on reworking it into an original story instead! 

This AU is something I have become pretty known for and which I always planned to do so much more with. So I am now in the works of making it into something fully my own, with a new name and allot of changes to make it its own thing. So if you notice you cannot access the Seaswap sideblog, it’s because I’ve locked it to use it as an archive for myself, and remove it from the public eye while I work on my ideas. I am really looking forward to getting into it and see what I will create, and I hope you guys will too!

So yeah, that’s all I really wanted to say! Thank you all who have followed me and is still following me, I love and appreciate every single one of you! ❤

Just wanted to mention that I have turned off anon asks for the time being, as I have gotten some asks about some very personal stuff I am not comfortable to answer or share through asks and especially not from anons! 

Heya it’s been awhile since I made one of these, and thought it was time to finally do one after who knows how long, haha!

So, there has been allot of changes in my personal life, so if you notice me post less than usual, that isn’t reblogs that is, that's the reason. 

As currently I got trouble drawing like overall and been creative, slowly getting back to it though but it’s going to take some time, but I will get there! And I am also focusing more on myself and my life outside the internet currently, which is going really well and I am feeling happier than I been for months. So plan to keep doing that before trying to get back to my stuff here for real xD

Also a small reminder when it comes to Seaswap: let me first make Seaswap content for you to fully love the ideas I have before you use my boys in stuff. I'd rather not see them used out of character and I know there's too little content for now to do it right! So no writing fics etc about them unless you have gotten my permission to do so!

Fanart of my Seaswap boys and other characters are always ok though, love seeing them as it always makes my day! So remember to tag me if you do some!

Alright so it’s been awhile since I done one of these, and felt it was time to do another one at last, so here goes xD

As you guys prolly have noticed, so have I been really slow with art lately, which is because I just been way too tired and also busy with other things, trying to get my life a bit more together, getting myself checked for various shit etc. But overall I just been too tired and haven’t had time, and when I finally do draw it doesn’t go on for too long, even though I want to but my energy levels are shit atm haha!

And not to mention whenever I do try to get back to drawing properly something always comes up, like currently my laptop is on its last like legs, one of the fans have died and now the screen has gotten fucked up. Like if i don’t keep the screen in a certain angle it will freeze the whole screen and slowly but surely turn pink until I move it again, but my laptop is about 5 years old and I am not getting it fixed, again, so I have already brought a new and way better laptop that I will hopefully get sometime next month! It originally was supposed to come this 20th but that didn’t happen.

So here is hoping the new laptop will help with my creativity!

Other than that, I have started on like new meds to help me with some shit, don’t really feel like going into way too much details since its personal but it’s nothing like life threatning or anything so ya all can chill on that front. But them pills have taken allot out of me especially when I started with them, they really messed me up as they made my stomach really, really unhappy, currently though I am well on that front but going to add another pill soon which will most likely fuck me over again until I gotten used to the dose again.

I also recently got yet another wisdom tooth pulled out after like 2 weeks of jaw pain, feels so damn good now when that tooth is gone haha.

And lastly, this tuesday I am finally gonna take my first covid shot, which I hope will go fine! 

But yeah, there have just been so much, especially lately I feel, that has stopped me from drawing and so on, but things are slowly getting better and I am making sure to get the help I need for all the various things that keeps popping up. But I just wanted to give you all a bit of a update since it’s been awhile and I am not the best at sharing things, like of course I don’t need to share every single thing but just some minor details here and there.

So do know I love and appreciate you all so much, and hope you guys don’t mind when I keep trying to clean out my drafts which is a never ending nightmare currently on my part haha, because they just never end and my work on it way too quickly gets so undone, but I will get to it fully one of these days, so until then hope you don’t mind me getting random spurts of energy to spam reblog stuf haha!

But ya all take care of yourselves, good luck and hope things goes well for ya all!!! ❤

So, thought it was time for this again since it’s been awhile, and after the week I have had I feel I need to give ya all a little update xD

Starting with last monday, I ended up having to rush to the ER, hospital emergency, i think it’s called ER, but yeah I had to get rushed there because I was in so much pain on the left side of my back and was cold sweating and just not well. And after many tests and allot of waiting, it was concluded that I got a case of the kidney stones!

Which I have heard is like one of the worst pains you can ever experience, luckily for me it like died down and I got to go home, but it was decided that I shall get one of those full body scans to check for them damn stones. I got a pill with me and the tuesday went fine, but then during tuesday night it started to hurt again, and after 4 hours I got up and had to take the pill which luckily helped! So yeah that’s one way to wake up on my birthday haha!

But it have not returned since then luckily, but I am still going to get my scan which will be on the 18th.

And then tomorrow, it was planned for me to get my second shot of that sweet anti covid juice, but guess what? Had to fucking rebook it because this saturday I got a fucking cold and I still got it, and while I am pretty sure it’s not covid, just a regular one, I can’t go and get the shot, which sucks! But I am already doing better I am just very stuffed nose and a bit of a sore throat, otherwise I am fine.

But thanks to all this, so will art and other stuff be even slower, I was trying to get back into drawing etc but as you guys can see, things have gotten hella in the way haha!

So just wanted to tell ya guys all this, I will most likely be fine but this is why art and so on have been slow, especially last week, so I am unsure if I will get to do my halloween pic for this year or not, we shall see!