#espurr-ing

there is a slight wrench thrown into this question because so many of our alters are vocaloids which do not have a canon. LOL

that being said generally speaking we tend to be pretty far removed. i mean i'm a liko introject and i don't think liko talks or acts like this. i will say that some of our older alters from when i was a teen are more likely to behave somewhat more like their source (or at least the fanon we liked for the vocaloids) just because they split during a time where we thought the DID was a religious thing and that our alters were actually past life selves possessing me or whatever. none of us believe that anymore, obviously, but yknow you live multiple years acting one way, it just keeps going. i still wouldn't call them particularly 1 to 1 however

as for pseudomemories (sorry that's my preferred term) we used to have them a lot back during The Religious Era but now we almost have none of them. i think hime and mikoto loosely hold onto theirs from back in the day but there's a layer of awareness of them being metaphorical and not real and the traumatic happenings in those pseudomemories don't affect them like trauma anymore. it's kind of just, a metaphorical structure to view themselves through? idk how to explain it

i wish i had a good answer for this but idk it just kinda doesn't bother me. i mean okay when i have major host changes the dissociation and all that bothers me, but being aware that i am inconsistent as a person in terms of my social identity doesn't bother me

i think there's a really unhealthy expectation brought on by internet/media portrayals of DID where alters should be really clear cut people that have strong immutable characteristics like singlets do and the sooner we all realize that's full of bullshit the better. i mean sure, some people do have alters that present that way, but that doesn't mean everyone does or should, plus there is a discussion to be had about how much of that is people forcing themselves to present as more distinct than they actually are because of this social expectation. and i say this as someone with some very distinct and elaborated alters. but i digress

my point is like, if you or others are constantly shifting and changing, that's fine. whoever you are that day is still you, even if it's different from yesterday. not being more static is fine, actually. this also applies to representing yourselves in art (which is something i've also struggled with in similar fashion before), if you feel like you are constantly shifting and changing, then art of you constantly shifting and changing is an accurate depiction of you, and that's fine!! perhaps there is even something artistic there in its own right!!

we have a pretty even mix between fronting solo and cofronting in pairs (and often the same pairs because a lot of our alters are “paired” together), but any more than 2 alters at a time is pretty unusual/chaotic. i’m a bit of an edge case because i’m host and can cofront with pretty much anyone but cofronting with sakiko or ayano is most common for me

YESSSSSS WE GOT EM /silly

zeke is also the other oc i have, though she transitions post-escape and goes by izzy! unlike shadow, she was a human child that was experimented on to see if they could transform her into a zorua by surgically replacing parts of her body with zorua parts. they were only partially successful- she ends up with one zorua ear, a tail, and some fur/markings. she also had a failed surgery on one eye that resulted in complete loss of the eye and a lot of visible scarring. aside from that her surgeries were generally considered successful, and the main problem was that she became “feral” as the scientists described her. she was aggressive and difficult to work with largely because of pain and trauma. eventually the scientists decide she won’t be able to be a pet and theyre losing money, so they sell her to someone who wants to turn her into an idol. she becomes popular because of her zorua traits, eventually collaborating with an idol group that ends up freeing her from her abusive manager (and helping her transition!)

oh that got SO long oh my god. anyways im definitely going to do better drawings of them all and flesh them out more but theyre very dear to me!

omfg i have to draw zeke and vee as friends they'd be such good friends LOL

THIS CONCEPT IS SO COOL!!! I LOVE THEM!!!! ROARS

this all does beg the question of what their end goal was had the experiments succeeded though. like the zorua that was trained to present as a human child, was the idea that it could be a pet but also serve the owner doing tasks around the home? :0 when they genetically modified zeke, was it with the intention that she could be a more intelligent zorua?