#enigm--a

//i know, i know, that's why i really really want to talk with her about it! but... i don't know how to put it. i know being whatever sexuality is natural and healthy and okay, its nothing i should worry about, but i'm talking about how it will affect my life in the gravity of work, school and the future itself. it's not like i'm going to come out in front of my class or anything, it's just that there are gross cases of people who come out to their family and friends and they get rejected by them. this is a sad fact i want to avoid,, and i know this is like asking a tree to grow watermelons, but idk man- i already talked about this with my psychologist and they told me, after an exhaustive talk with my family that they were going to support me all the way. but i still cant get over the fact that they keep making homophobic, racist and basically demeaning comments about the world itself and it makes me feel- well... very very violent and i dont know how to handle this. i started to realize this was going on a year ago and its making me feel very uncomfortable everyday its just... gross. im starting to feel the pain and fear of some of the people that get thrown comments like that at and im also starting to realize im one of them. 

i know this sounds extremely silly but im just very nervous and im typing out whats crossing my mind at the moment,, my worries and stuff and i apologize if this came out long om f i just,, vent