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Berada dekatmu menjadi sedikit membuatku tenang dan ada perasaan nyaman, hanya saja aku tak boleh terbawa suasana dengan semua itu dan harus bersikap biasa-biasa saja dan menjadi dingin seperti pada lainnya. Aku tahu kamu masih dengannya, kamu seolah-olah menganggap dia bukan siapa-siapamu. Mungkin itu untuk menjaga perasaan seseorang saja? aku memang tidak pintar menebak perasaan seseorang dan mendekati secara terang-terangan, tapi terima kasih sudah pernah sedikit ada dalam perasaan hingga kini mungkin pamit.

Hari itu aku cukup senang karena dia membutuhkanku, hanya saja aku menjadi sedikit ragu karena mungkin dia masih dengannya. Aku sudah berusaha dan hampir berhasil menetralkan isi hati dari segala tentangnya, menarik keluar dia dari pikiranku, dan mencoba memposisikannya di tempat tergelap dalam hatiku. Tapi ternyata dia mau mencoba menggagalkan lagi semua rencanaku. Hebat sekali dia!

Aku sudah kalah dengannya, dia tahu itu. Aku juga tahu doinya pembuat usaha yang sukses hingga dirinya luluh. Aku tak sehebat dia, karena aku punya caraku sendiri, andai saja aku sedikit bisa lebih cepat atau dia mau menunggu sebentar, mungkin hal ini tidak akan terjadi seperti sekarang :)) 

Kembali ke cerita setelah hari itu dan singkat cerita ketika video call terjadi dengan seseorang yang belum terlalu kenal, aku dan dia disangka punya hubungan spesial (pacar) katanya. Hanya saja itu anganku saja ucapku pada orang yang baru kukenal itu. Ketika perbincangan itu terjadi dan aku sempat terpikir kembali bahwa hati ini ingin mencoba kembali tetapi aku ingat dia masih dengannya. 

Hari ini pun aku percaya, dia membutuhkanku hanya untuk kepentingannya pribadi atau hanya ingin lebih dalam menghancurkan hati ini? kenapa tidak meminta bantuan orang lain selain aku? sudahlah, berhenti mencoba berada disekitarku. Jangan membuat perasaan ini tumbuh kembali -,-

Task 01: Merry Memories

For a few years of his life, Eduardo celebrated the holidays in foster homes. He was given gifts, and had people to spend the holidays with. But he was missing the family aspect that he seemed to be vital to the Christmas experience for Eduardo. There were always thank you’s, but no traditions to carry out throughout the years. Of course, at the time Eduardo was too young to tell the difference.

When he was four, he was adopted and happily spent Christmas with his adoptive family. Eduardo was invited  to join them in years of traditions that he’d missed in the past. Eduardo trekked into the field and had the honor of choosing the tree himself, and even got to place the star on top when it was time. His parents were supportive, and kind. Eduardo even had a sister, who always woke him up before the sun rose to open presents. The two enjoyed spending Christmas Eve searching for their well hidden gifts from their parents, and attempting to catch Santa when he came to deliver their presents.

Task 01: Merry Memories!

      Christmas has always been Tara’s second favorite holiday (behind Halloween, naturally). There was something about the cheery spirit that Tara just couldn’t get enough of. Being an optimist at heart, she loved to see everyone so happy.

      Tara’s father, David, had always insisted on getting a real tree. Every year, no exceptions. Even when he fell ill, he still asked Tara and her sister to go out to get one. Tara’s sister, Lilly, started cooking a meal for them all as soon as she was capable. Prior to her learning, they tended to stick to basic dinners. Tara’s niece, Meghan, was the one that truly made Tara appreciate the holidays. There was nothing better than getting her niece the latest toy and watching her face light up on Christmas morning. Tara and Meghan would play in the snow for hours. Drink hot cocoa and read holiday stories. The whole family came together for dinner, and decorated the tree with Christmas music blaring in the background. They’d fall asleep watching Rudolph or Elf, and exchange the gifts that they could afford for one another (even when Tara was spending most of her income from minimum wage jobs on her education, she’d scrounge up what cash she could to buy gifts for everyone; the harmonica necklace that Tara is often wearing was actually given to her by Meghan one year [Tara has always worn it constantly, despite having no connection to harmonicas]).