imma ramble a bit, because seeing the trans comic i reblogged just now made me think of something
i've sorta always wanted my sides of my hair to be shaved. i don't excatly know what's it called but i will describe it the best i can. just the sides of my head and the back shaved, so that when i tie my hair up you can see my head shaved except for the ponytail, but when i put my heair down it covers the shaved parts. that sorta thing. it doesn't sound very clear but i tried lol
just that one tiktok i saw of that one person who had that kind of haircut looking very androgynous, and i wanted that
but i dont think i will ever have that for some time. mostly for dance reasons, since i have to tie my hair into a bun for exams and recitals, also i am very scared of asking my dance teacher if i could have my hair cut like that lol, and idt my hair being cut like how i wanted it will allow it to be in a bun.
and also im scared. im scared that it wouldn't look good on me. that i would hate it. maybe this feeling is just something i would get over soon
but i feel that i would like it. i want that. i want to look in a mirror and say, hey that's me right there, i look good, and that's me.
not to say i dont look good now, i look okay, but i feel i would be happier if i just made that change to my hair.
but doubt i suppose, and dance. goddammit i wish i could character customize myself like in games.
something like this i suppose haha
i feel like i would be happy like that
also shaved hair just feels nice, and some days i have the urge to chop of all my hair because it's so annoying
