#emptyprayers

🎧I tried my best to keep you here....But it's hard to hold a shadow....You said goodbye but I couldn't hear....Too busy praying for a miracle....You left me on my knees....You just walked out the door....You didn't even have the decency to intervene while I was begging God for you to love me. #MaryJBlige #EmptyPrayers #MyLife2TheJourneyContinues

Where will I go when I close my eyes for the last time? Will I wake to the sound of angels playing harps and bugles in front of pearly gates that contain a mansion made of gold for one and all who pass through St. Peters V.I.P. entrance? Or will I hear only screams like nails on a chalkboard playing over and over broken record style in my mind until my ears feel like bursting and I can't seem to draw a breath because the stench of dead everything is everywhere? Nay, I think that when my time comes I will experience neither Heavenly tunes nor fire and brimstone. I fear that what may happen to us when we pass is sort of like a television set when you get tired of watching it. One second you are snuggled up next to someone you care about, watching a classic drama that makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. The next second the movie is over and the credits are rolling down the screen, you glance at the clock on the wall and realize that it is far later than you thought it was, you have work in less than 6 hours! So, you grab the remote control, point it directly at the big 58'' flat screen set that has given you so many great HD memories and just like that... "Click"... the world you were just enjoying seconds earlier has now become a black abyss with nothing to display except for perhaps the reflection of a small lamp in the background. I feel that life is similar, in that we may be living an academy award winning life up until the moment that... We aren't! As scary as that sounds, I wouldn't mind half as much if I knew for 100% certainty that the journey wasn't just over when the lights go out. I mean there's gotta be more to life than just a physical 80 year experience right? Otherwise, what's the point? I don't want to end up as worm food after the curtains fall and the stars fade. But who can tell us any different and give that with a guarantee? Wish I knew, wish I had answers. I'll find out someday I suppose, until then I'll just keep channel surfing through life, never stopping for commercials and always sticking to the premium channels!