#empty heart

My heart is just an empty vessel; the fullness you see from a distance is only a mirage.

all I see when I look at you is anger. I feel like a bull staring at the color red. All the pain in my heart wants to rip you apart like I do to myself everyday for choosing you. Without a second thought you replaced what we had with something mediocre, I find that hurtful is that really how much I meant to you all those times you told me you loved me…. If that’s what love is please keep it far away from me because I will never give this power to anyone else you have shattered my will to love and I hope that’s what you wanted. Because now I have to learn to pick all my pieces up while not fully falling apart our son has to watch me break because of the man that was supposed to protect us but instead he threw us aside like last weeks news and moved on to the next new exciting thing. I wish we had been enough to hold our family together because I never wanted one that broke to pieces it hurts me every second of everyday that my child will probably never know his father and that his father will never truly care to know him